Filed to story: A Girl Nobody Wanted Book by SansaR
“What else should I do?” he asked, still laughing.
“You have to answer what I asked…” I said.
“It is not him, Sarah…” he said. But he was still washing those plates and mugs. Is he going to wash them until they get disappear?
I went to him and pulled his hand.
“Look at me…” I said firmly.
“Let me finish this first…” he said.
“No!!! Look at me!!!” I yelled.
He seemed to be startled with my voice. He dried his hands from tissues and turned to me.
“Okay, madam…” he said with a sweet smile.
“Look at my eyes…” I demanded.
He looked deeply into my eyes.
“Tell me, Luke… It is Jake, isn’t it? Please don’t try to fool me…” I said.
He stared at me for a few seconds, and then he smiled.
“No, Sarah… It is not Jake…” he said, keeping his eyes on mine.
“Don’t lie to me, Luke… You love him. You love him more than anything else…” I screamed.
“Yes… I love him…” he said calmly.
I felt like my heart stopped for a second. I wanted him to tell this, didn’t I? But hearing it from him is harder than I ever expected.
“But not as you think…” he added.
What?
“I know him since I was an infant… I grew up with him. I basically did everything together with him. So, how can I not love him? He is more like a twin brother to me…” he said.
“So, the person you talked about yesterday… It is not Jake?” I asked confusedly.
“Are you crazy, Sarah? How can you even think about something so stupid? Can you ever think of your twin brother as your lover? Same goes with me for Jake…” he said.
“No… It cannot be… You are still trying to hide the truth from me. Luke, listen… I want to hear the truth… I am not an idiot… You clearly said how much you love him. You are willing to stay single for your entire life for that person… I can’t think of anyone you love that much other than Jake…” I said.
“I love Jake a lot… Really a lot… I am willing to do anything for him, no matter what it costs me… But I love him as a brother… As a friend… It is totally different from the love I have for this other person…” he said, smiling.
“Okay, let’s say you are telling the truth… But then why you can’t tell us who it is? Jake has shared all his secrets with you… I have done the same for you… So, I can’t see any reason why you can’t tell us other than the person you love is Jake…”
“Sarah, it is not Jake… Why you can’t just believe me? You are driving me really crazy…” he said in an annoying voice.
“You are the one who drives me crazy, Luke… I couldn’t sleep at all last night… You guys hide so many things from me… But I don’t bother you asking about them… But this… This I must know… Luke, please… Tell me the truth…” I said again, holding both of his hands…
“I am telling the truth, Sarah… You think I can lie to you while looking at your eyes… I love you, Sarah… I can’t lie to people I love…” he said gently.
“Then why you can’t tell us who it is?” I asked, while my eyes filled with tears…
“I can’t tell you because even I feel embarrassed about my feelings towards him… Both of you know him so well… I don’t want to feel uncomfortable when I am with all of you together…” he said.
“You don’t have to feel embarrassed or uncomfortable in front of us, Luke… You know so well how much we love you…” I said.
“You won’t say so if you know who that person is… Jake is the same… He is going to be really pissed off if he knew…” he said, removing his hands from me, and walked towards the living room. “Luke…” I shout at him while walking behind him.
“We are never going to be judgmental about anything related to you… You are being afraid for no reason…” I said.
He sat on the sofa. He was staring blankly at the wall… His face was totally expressionless… I couldn’t understand anything… I really thought it is Jake… But now with what he said, I am shaken… Yet, I can’t totally believe him… I can’t really think of anyone he loves, that we won’t approve… Wait… Did I really thought about approving… A person both me and Jake will not approve…
My whole body started to tremble… God! I can think of a person that suits this… But no… There is no way Luke can love him… That can never happen, right…
But I have to make everything clear…
“Is that Shane then?” I asked after a long pause… Even I couldn’t believe I had the strength to tell his name…
“Is that Shane, then?” I asked after a long pause… Even I couldn’t believe I had the strength to tell his name…
My heart was about to jump out of my chest… I was so damn nervous…
He stared at me as he saw me for the first time…
Then his eyes moved from me to the wall…
“Yes…” he said after a few seconds.
What! YES!!! He loves Shane… How can it be possible? He hates him… He has told me on several occasions how much he hates him… This is a total astonishment… “I told you. You won’t like the truth…” he released a sigh…
“No! Don’t think like that, Luke… I just can’t believe it. I thought you don’t like him…” I managed to say.
“Sometimes you have to pretend to do things just to hide your true feelings…” he said.
“So, you really love Shane…” I asked. I just wanted to hear him saying it because it was so damn hard to believe…
“Yes… I love Shane… But you know how he is. He is straight more than anyone I know. So, how can I ever have a chance with him?” he seemed so down.
What should I say to him? I felt completely lost… I remembered the day, Shane told me about his feelings towards Luke…
Both of them love each other… Both of them think the other one is completely straight, and they won’t have a chance…
If what Luke told me is true, then he loves Shane so much… Shane also loves Luke so much… They just have to reveal their feelings to each other… But both of them are afraid to do it… This is a total mess…
I think I am the first and the only person who knows about both of them and their emotions… So, I have to reveal the truth, isn’t it?