Filed to story: A Girl Nobody Wanted Book by SansaR
When they finished dinner, I had cleaned the living room. They all came to the living room and sat on the sofa to watch TV. Mom and dad were watching TV, but Shane… his eyes are continuously glued to his phone. My parents think its really important to have some time together, as a family (I am not included in that family anyway…) every day. So Shane has to stay there even though he doesn’t want to watch TV.
I went to the dining table to get the plates. They haven’t left anything for me to eat, like most of the other days. There was enough food for all four of us. They have taken more food to their plates, more than they can eat. So in all their plates, there was leftover food. Their message was crystal clear. If I want to eat the food I cooked, I got to eat from their leftovers.
“There is nothing to worry, this is my life. I have been living like this in my entire life…Stay strong…” telling the part of me, who gets heartbroken every day by their wickedness, I started washing the dishes.
While I was washing them, one dish just slipped from my hand and fall into the sink with a loud bang. Thank God it didn’t break.
“What you fu***ng break this time” mom shouted, walking towards the kitchen.
“Nothing mom… It didn’t break…” raising the dish in her direction I said.
“you ignorant bi*ch… since it didn’t break you think everything is okay? why the hell are you so clumsy. The only thing you have to is this cooking and cleaning, but you can’t even do it properly… what is the use of your fu**ing life?” she kept on scolding me. I knew that if I tell anything in reply, things will get worst. So I just turn around and continue washing. My leg was also paining like crazy. I wanted to go to my room as soon as possible and give my poor leg a break.
“you fu**ing turn away from me when I talk to you. How dare you bi*ch” without letting me even react, she pushed me from the back. I was not standing that steadily because of my leg. Reaching the maximum possible level of unluckiness, my right knee hit the pantry cupboard door!!!
I screamed with the intolerable pain. Both of my legs felt lifeless and I dropped to the floor, crying.
My screams made her even furious. She started to kick me mercilessly. I had no other option but to try my best to keep my right leg safe from her kicks.
When she feels, she has tortured me enough she stopped.
“I wish you never born” she finally said.
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I was lying on the floor and crying with the pain. I felt like cutting my right leg above the knee. I can’t bear this pain… I just can’t…
I thought I am going crazy. I couldn’t think of anything clearly.
I got up after some time, by then they all have left the living room. They all should be getting ready to sleep peacefully after torturing me enough for today.
I sat on the kitchen chair and got my backpack. I searched for my pain killers anxiously and took all of them to my palm. I should take all of these!!! yes… I should…
Do you think I want to hurt my self, overdosing the pain killers? My life is pathetic and there is only pain living this life, but…Don’t worry. I may not have the strongest mind, but my mind is strong enough to understand that I should not hurt myself for things other people do.
Then what is with all the pain killers? I am in intense pain. I can’t bear that. I wanted to reduce my pain that’s all.
I was about to take all the pain killers at once when I heard the faint vibration of my phone.
I took it out of the backpack and opened.
“Hope you had taken dinner princess. If not please go eat something. You have to take medicine as well.” I was just staring at his message when my phone indicates a new message.
“It is killing me to see you in pain. I wish I could take all the pain from you. Please stay strong for a little bit more. I am going to make everything right for you my sunshine”
My sunshine!!! my heart melted. My eyes filled with new tears. But this time the reason for my tears was different. I felt a sudden urge to hear those beautiful words from his mouth while looking at those handsome eyes. I wanted so much to run to him, hug him tightly, and let him make me warm in his muscular arms.
“please… I don’t think I can go through all these pain for much longer… please let me come to you…please let me feel the warmth of care and love for the first time in my life” I whispered, but didn’t type it for him.
Anyway, I put all the pain killers back to the container, keeping just two of them in my hand.
“please go eat something” his words were echoing in my mind. I poured some milk for me and get some biscuits with cheese.
I went to the upstairs, took a wash and lie on my bed.
“I ate and took the pain killers” I typed and sent.
“Thank you very much for taking care of me today… Your texts mean a world to me…” I again typed and sent.
“Your texts mean a world to me” did I really send that as well. I sighed. What will he think of me… He may think I am so pathetic. He may think of me as a normal fangirl who is drooling over him. Why am I acting so stupid all the time? I received another message.
I opened it when my heart beats double its speed.
“texting with you doesn’t mean a world to me ” yeah, I guessed. Who am I, when comparing to you… You may have so many other people texting you. You have your family, your friends. Everyone loves you.
My phone vibrated again.
“because you are my ONLY world” my heart stopped for a second, I forgot to breathe.
I couldn’t remember anything that happened today other than his last text “because you are my ONLY world”
Do you think the same as I think? Is he… is he in love with me?
I fell into a deep sleep thanks to the pain killers, but not for so long. I woke up around 3 am, with incredible pain in my leg. I tried my best to forget the pain and sleep again, but I was not succeeded. Finally, I had to give up and take pain killers again. This is not going to work right? I can’t depend on pain killers forever. I have to get some real treatments or else I am afraid I would end up being a cripple.
My knee area was swollen so much. It looked like a good size ball, and the rest of my leg look so tiny compared to that.
Next morning, right after I entered the university first thing I did was go to the medical center.
“This looks pretty bad… and what are these other bruises…” Doctor asked pointing to some of the bruises in my hands and forehead. I got them from mom yesterday.
“Oh, these… I slipped in the bathroom” I lied. There is no way I can complain about my own mother right?
“Hmm… that’s strange how you get these kinds of bruises from slipping in the bathroom” he said concerned. I guess he knows I am lying, but do I have any other choice Doctor? I am sorry.
“I also felt it is a bit strange when I check them,” I said, but I hope I never said that. He stared at me suspiciously.
“By any means, did you hit your knee also from your slip,” he asked pressing the word slip.
“Yeah… my knee also hit the floor. I think yesterday was a bad day for me…” I tried to smile foolishly.
“Look Sarah… this is beyond our potential now. This looks pretty bad. You should go to the hospital and first get an X-Ray. Then they will decide further treatments”
“ho…hospital… but doctor… please can’t we do something without going to a hospital…”
“Why? are you afraid to go to the hospital. They are not going to cut your leg,” he said grinning at me.
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I came out of the medical center, not knowing what should I do now. I wanted to go to the hospital, I couldn’t undergo the pain. It was extremely difficult for me to even walk now. But I have one problem… How am I going to pay the hospital bill?