Filed to story: A Girl Nobody Wanted Book by SansaR
After a few minutes, I heard the bathroom door opened again.
Maybe Shane went to the bathroom…
Should I get him something to drink? Lime juice or something? I don’t really know what should I get to a drunken person…
I waited in my room for a few minutes more, thinking should I go out and check on him or not.
Finally, I went out, ready to face any consequences.
A faint light falls on to the corridor from his room. I walked towards his room, making sure not to make any noise.
His door was not fully closed.
“Why you made me this stupid?” his voice raised from inside.
I got panicked… To whom is he talking? Is he calling someone over the phone?
“You know how much I love you, and how much it feels ridiculous to love you?” his frail voice raised again.
He is definitely talking to someone over the phone…
“I tried… I tried my best to hide my feelings… You know how much it hurts to see you every day and not telling you about my feelings? You know how much it hurts to resist my self from kissing you intensely.” “No, you don’t know… How could you know, when you get everything you want, and everyone fu**ing loves you…”
“Now you have got someone to love for real ha? You know how it made me felt… I feel like wanting to kill my self…” is he crying? His voice sounds like that.
I don’t think he is talking over the phone… He doesn’t give plenty of time to the other person to talk… He just keeps on talking… Maybe he is just talking to himself… Drunk talking…
“I… I… am a monster… I know you hate me… You feel nothing but disgust for me, don’t you? But I can’t help but loving you… God! I fu**ing love you? Why don’t you feel me?” he was definitely crying. Anyway, whom is he referring to? With whom is he in love?
After all, he is not upset because of what happened in the morning… This has nothing to do with me… That is a relief.
But…
He must be finally loving a girl for real, after sleeping with almost all the girls in the batch… Shane loves her so much… He is totally crazy about her… But whoever this girl is, she does not love him… He has broke girl’s hearts many times. Finally, someone broke his heart…
Poor Shane… I know how hard it is to be in a one-sided love… I stayed like that for years without knowing Jake also had feelings for me… Even Shane doesn’t deserve to be suffered from this pain.
I wanted to go and comfort my brother… I know it sounds crazy after how he treats me for my entire life. But I wanted to give him a warm hug, and pat his back, assuring him everything is going to be okay. Maybe he won’t mind me staying with him since he is super drunk.
I gently opened his door a bit more…
“I am not fu**ing GAY!!! Why the fu** you made me a one? Why you made me love you?” his voice raised between cries at the same time.
I froze… Gay!!! What the hell is he talking about… Is he loving another guy instead of a girl? No way, that could happen… No one can be straight as Shane… He had countless girlfriends…
I was just staring at him, without being able to process anything…
He was sitting at his table, looking at his laptop. He had removed his shirt, and he was just in his jeans.
“You know… I can just do anything for you… I don’t even care about being gay just for you… Can’t you love me back the same way I love you…” he was telling like a mad person while touching his laptop screen. He just moved a bit from his position, giving me a clear view of his laptop screen.
OH MY GOD!!!!!
It was the only thing that came to my mind as I was staring at the image of shirtless Luke smiling so sexily on his laptop screen…
I was just staring at Luke’s photo on Shane’s laptop, couldn’t even believe what I have heard and seen.
How do any of these things possible? Shane had affairs with multiple girls. It is not just rumored that he has slept with many girls at the university. He took some of these girls home when my parents were not around. He always told me beforehand whenever he is taking a girl because he requires me to stay in my room during that time.
So how the hell he could grow feelings over a guy when he had so many girls in his life? Above everything, how he could have feelings over Luke, who is not at all gay?
Is this a dream? What the hell is happening with my life lately? Everything I am experiencing right now is quite impossible, and I never expected them to happen. “Luke! How you could love her? How could you?” Shane’s voice raised again.
“How could you come to my home and say that you are in love with my sister? Don’t you think what would I feel?”
“You don’t know, Luke… It felt like you stabbed me with a knife right at my heart which beats just for you. God! I am going crazy!!”
He tried to stand up and walk towards his bed, but he was not stable, and he was going to trip over.
I couldn’t stop my self from running to him and support him.
“Shane!! Be careful!!!” I hold him and support him to walk towards the bed and sit on it.
“You!!!” he kept on looking at me for a few seconds.
His eyes were all red, and his face was flushed with tears.
His hair, which he always keeps neatly styled, looked rumpled and he was a total mess.
I have never seen him in such a miserable state. Arrogant, self-centric Shane in such a helpless situation.
“Why you have to pick him out of everyone?” he asked.
I didn’t know how to answer him, I don’t have an affair with Luke after all. So Shane is just suffering for nothing.
But I highly doubt, Luke will ever return to Shane’s feelings, even if he happened to be gay and he has no affair with anyone else.
He has told me various times, how much he hates Shane. Shane is like the most disgusting person in Luke’s life.
“Answer me, Sarah. Why you chose him? Why the hell it had to be him?” he demanded, shaking me from my shoulders.
“Shane… Listen, you are not in the right mind. Please go to sleep now.” I tried to convince him.
“Sleep… How the hell I can sleep when the person I love like crazy is having an affair with someone else? Tell me, how can I sleep?” he screamed. “Shane…”I tried to talk.
But he silent me, keeping his palm on my lips.
“I have to tell you this, Sarah. I want you to listen to me… I am fed up, keeping everything just to me…” he continued on saying.
I nodded my head, assuring him I am ready to listen.