Filed to story: A Girl Nobody Wanted Book by SansaR
I have no right to push him to reveal the truth…
“Hey, are you angry with me? please don’t… I didn’t think much before sending that text… You can take your time. I will wait for you to eternity…” I sent him again.
“I am not angry with you princess… how can I be angry with you, when the fault is mine. It’s your right to know with whom you are talking. Please forgive me for not letting you know. Believe me, everything I do… I do them because I want us to be together for the rest of our lives…. I don’t want to rush things and destroy everything… One day when you know the truth you will understand me” he has sent a long reply.
Tears filled in my eyes… He is sad… I made him sad…
You fool!!! why you made the only person who cares about you sad?
“Please don’t be sad… Its true I wish from all my heart that I can spend every second of my life with you… but I can wait… because I know, though you are not beside me you always care about me… knowing that is enough for me… so please don’t be sad… and remember I believe you no matter what happened…”
“I know babe… now.. enough sadness… I bet you are crying right now”
“How you know?” I sent him, wiping tears from my eyes.
“I know everything about you, my princess… now stop crying… you know that I cannot stand tears in your eyes…”
“Fine… I am not crying…” I wiped my face with my t-shirt and smiled at my phone like a fool…
“Good girl… now go to sleep and dream what we will do during the workshop… if you want to see me in your dreams… just try to see the most handsome man you have ever seen in your life… :D”
I fell into sleep after some time… as he said I actually dream about the workshop and I saw, I was talking with someone happily, that person was behind me… holding me… his hands wrap around my waist… I couldn’t see his face…
He made me turned around to see him….
Oh God!!!
It was not Luke…
It was JAKE!!!
I was talking with someone happily, that person was behind me… holding me… his hands wrap around my waist… his face buried in my shoulder… his lips gently touching my bare skin…
I
cannot see his face…
He made me turned around to see him…
His face lit with the most beautiful smile I have ever seen on his devilishly handsome face… Oh My God, It was Jake!!!!
I woke up sweating. Oh God! that dream felt so real. I even smell his cologne. His touch was so warm and comforting. The smile on his face… it’s a rare smile you can’t usually see it on his perfectly sculpted face. Not even after a great victory of a football series. My whole body was shivering, despite it is sweating too.
Luke asked me to see him in my dreams, but instead, I saw his friend. But he asked me to see the most handsome man I have ever seen, didn’t he? So I did what he asked, for me the most handsome man is Jake…
I don’t know anyone can be that handsome and you know…. tempting…
No matter whom I love, that fact won’t be changed I guess…
I groaned.
However, I felt like I cheat on Luke. I had no right to even see
Jake in my dreams, he is not mine to dream and I am not his too…
I picked up my phone to check the time, it was still 2 am. Therefore, I attempted to sleep again, but I couldn’t. I just lied down on my bed. My mind was loaded with different thoughts about both of them and that dream…
Why I can’t just forget about Jake and be loyal to Luke? This is killing me…
I witness how my twin brother change his lovers day by day like he changes his clothes. He doesn’t even worry about any of them, he just wants to satisfy his needs, nothing more than that. Those girls… I don’t think most of them care about it either, they just want to sleep with him, with the most attractive football player available (since Luke or Jake don’t give a s*t about them…).
More I see that I realized the value of being loyal to one person. I don’t want to be like them… I hate to be like them…
I want just one person who loves and cares me, who don’t think about any other girl but me. I want to be the same for that person, love him, care about him and not even think of anyone else but him…
I have already got that kind of a person, it’s my sweet Luke… I know he loves me so much and he cares about me every second. I am pretty sure, he doesn’t think about any other girl. He is so sweet and joyous….. my sweet Luke!!!!
What I give him in return? My thoughts are everywhere, I can’t even get rid of my stupid obsession for Jake What type of person am I? I am just as low as Shane and his girls… I am worthless…
Suddenly my phone vibrated, interrupting my thoughts. I picked it up to see a new chat in WhatsApp.
“I saw you in my dreams… I was holding you in my arms… Now I cannot sleep… my whole mind is occupied by you… what have you done to me girl?”
I couldn’t stop tears welling up my eyes…
What a co-incident? We both woke up in the middle of our sleep with a dream. The only difference is, he dreamt about me while I was dreaming about someone else…
How pathetic I am…
Please forgive me, my love… I hold my phone near my heart and let my tears to spill out.
My phone vibrated again.
“You awake?”
Oh s**t! I was planning to not reply to him, because I didn’t know what to tell him. How can I tell him that I was dreaming about his friend?
I forgot, he can see that I read his chat… Disadvantages of new technologies…
“Yeah… I woke up as my phone vibrated with the message” I sent. Oh! I hate lies…
“Oh! I am so sorry babe. I woke you up”
“No no that’s fine…”
“You know, that dream felt so real. I felt like I really have you in my arms… oh God! you don’t know, how much I craved to hold you like that.”
Oh, darling! I craved for that too. I wish that day come real soon… I want to forget all this bullshit and commit my self to you… only to you… forever…
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