Filed to story: A Girl Nobody Wanted Book by SansaR
“You must go to Jake and confess your feelings,” she said mischievously.
What!!! No!!! Are you kidding me?
“No! Britany, how can I do that?”
“I don’t know. You can do it as you want. But I select the place and time.”
“No Britany I can’t do that. He will think I am insane. And you know how he is. He is not cool with this kind of things”
“So do you think he will be cool after reading this… your little dirty thoughts about him?”
“If you do that… we will give your little book back. We will never even talk about it…” she added.
There were some girls, who tried to get close to Jake, including Britany. Though Jake is a decent, calm person in general, if you get on his nerves, he can be furious and you won’t even want to be near him.
I have heard how Britany was humiliated sometimes back when she was drunk and started throwing her self at Jake at a party.
Jake need his space, he doesn’t like anyone cross his boundaries.
So how am I going to do this? Since it was Britany we are talking about, everyone ignored that incident easily. But it is never going to be the same for me…
Still, it will be far better than letting everyone reading this stupid thing right? So should I do it?
“I don’t have all day… tell your decision”
It has never been difficult to take a decision. This is such a dilemma.
If I go and confess to Jake, he will act all rude and I will get humiliated. Everyone will get to know it, including Luke. But if they get to read my book, oh God… I was so insane to write such shits… “Okay, Britany I will do that… but you should give my book back and as you said, you should never even talk about this again” I said.
“Deal!!!” she said giggling.
“Let’s go Brit called,” Amy said.
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I was waiting with Amy, while Britany and Mia went on a mission to select a perfect place to perform my suicidal act.
I am going to really do this… Please, Luke, I hope you will talk to me after you get to know this. Please don’t misunderstand. I don’t love him anymore. I will explain everything… I just can’t let anyone read this… Amy took me to the canteen. It was full of students. This bit** has selected a perfect place… They should all go to hell!!!
We came to Britany and Mia.
“He is over there… Good luck sweety…” Britany said, pointing to the center of the canteen.
Jake was there… but he was not alone… the whole football team was there including Luke!!!! Oh My God!!!!!
Jake was there in the middle of the canteen, surrounded by the whole football team. They were in a serious discussion.
These girls are so evil to be human. They want to humiliate me in the best possible way. What are they going to get out of this anyways, hurting poor me?
I felt like walking back and ask Britany to screw herself, but I was not strong enough to face the consequence. That’s my problem I am not mentally strong enough to do anything.
I walked slowly towards the direction where Jake and the football team were. My legs felt like jelly, my heart was thumping like crazy, I was sweating.
Please, God, help me… please give me the courage to face this…
They didn’t even notice me as they were so engaged in their discussion.
Okay, Sarah let’s get this thing finished. You can’t let those bitches reveal your dirty little secret right? So be strong. you can do this.
“Jake….” I said slowly. I think I talked too softly so I was not audible at all.
“Jake, “I said again this time bit louder.
Their discussion stopped suddenly. Jake lifted his head and his eyes set on mine. Oh God for the first time our eyes met, but not in the way I always fantasized.
His eyes were filled with confusion and a different feeling that I couldn’t figure out.
My eyes effortlessly traveled to search Luke.
There he was, looked all terrified. His mouth was half opened. I am sorry… I am so sorry… I don’t mean any of the things I am going to tell right now… Please don’t ditch me…
I adjusted my eyes again on Jake’s. He was still staring at me.
“You have to make it sound real. Don’t try to act dumb” Britany’s words were repeating on my mind.
“Jake… I have something to tell you” I said, trying my best to not break into tears.
I wish I could dig a pit and bury myself, without going through this s**t.
He didn’t say anything, didn’t even nod his head or even blink. He was looking right into my eyes like he was about to choke me to death.
“Jake I… I want to tell you… that….” oh my god how much I fancied to say these magical words to him, why everything went this much wrong for me?
“that… I… I LOVE YOU!!!” Oh my God, I should die. I should die right now.
His eyes clouded immediately with some emotions that I couldn’t read. His face went darker, his jaws clenched.
“I love you so much… I am so much attracted to you…” I don’t really know how I sounded, but I was trying my best to sound like I was telling truth.
“I really love you… Jake I…” but without letting me continue, he rose up. His was burning with anger. For a moment, I thought he was going to hit me, but instead, he walked away furiously, his strong arm brushed my shoulder and made me almost fall. Tears that I was trying so hard to control started to spill out. I was looking at the way Jake disappeared with a blurred vision. Everyone was staring at me, it felt like I got naked in front of them.
Everyone was so shocked, maybe even more than me, so they didn’t tell even a word. Before they come back to their senses I hurried off.
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I had no idea where I should go. I was just running and running until I couldn’t breathe anymore. I paused and put my hands on my knee panting.
I looked around I was near the main gate. I should go home, immediately and maybe never returned.
But all the crying and running had drained me out completely. So I stayed a few minutes trying calm down and gather some strength.