Filed to story: A Girl Nobody Wanted Book by SansaR
“First, That bit** attacked Sarah during my birthday party. Can you remember how much they all beat up your sister? ” Luke asked.
But without letting Shane say anything, he continued speaking.
“How you can remember, you were pretty drunk. Also, you were so happy that she got beaten up, right? Did you even utter a word against it? Instead, You approved it. You appreciated that bit** for beating your own sister, and slept with her on that night as a reward, am I right?” Luke seemed furious…
Shane was just staring at him, he didn’t even try to say something.
I couldn’t really understand what is going on. Luke never talks to anyone like this. He hates to hurt other people. So why he talks to Shane like this? This is so unlikely of him…
“Luke… There is no point in talking about the past… Shane has nothing to do with what happened today. Beth just thought I am having an affair with Shane because she didn’t know I am his sister.” I tried to explain.
“He may have nothing to do with what happened today. But they all first started to bully you and hurt you because of him, just to impress him. He didn’t do anything to stop them. So they are just continuing that…” Luke yelled again.
Shane was still quite… Why the hell is he not speaking up for himself. This is so unlikely of Shane as well… He is never ready to get criticized by anyone, even if he has a fault in his hands. But now, he is just being quiet even when he has no mistakes from his side. I think I have to speak up for him.
“Listen, Luke…”I said, standing up.
“We don’t have to think of what happened in the past. Currently, no one is trying to hurt me or bully me. It is just Beth. She is actually madly in love with Shane… That’s the reason for her actions. Shane did what needed to be done today. He said in front of everyone that I am his sister, and also he specifically told everyone not to hurt me ever again… ” I said.
“He should have done that a long time ago. He wanted to make such a scene to tell everyone that you are his sister. Why he couldn’t let others know naturally?” Luke asked.
I was totally speechless, I didn’t even know how to respond to Luke.
“As always, he wanted to have other people’s attention… As always, he wanted to be in the spotlight. He wanted to be the hero.” Luke said.
I couldn’t even believe it was Luke who was speaking like this. His words are like sharp knives. He had no empathy at all…
“We both didn’t want to go to everyone and tell that we are siblings, Luke… Shane did what he had to do in that situation. I don’t think he wanted to be a hero. He just wanted to protect me, that’s all…” I said.
“You know nothing, Sarah… Even if he is your twin brother, you don’t know anything about him. Who knows if he is the one who asked Beth to go and attack you so that he can be a hero in front of everyone…”
Luke!!!! You have gone insane!!! Do you at least know what are you talking about? I have never felt this angry with Luke. What has happened to my sweet, always cool Luke?
“What I gain from such an action, Luke? Even if I get attention from other people, what is the use of it?” Shane talked for the first time. His voice was filled with pain…
“You might think you can impress me that way!!!” Luke said.
What!!!! you have crossed all the limits, Luke! This is totally ridiculous!!!
“Luke!!!” I screamed at him.
“Don’t act like you are surprised, Sarah… You knew he has feelings for me, though you hid it from you…” Luke then yelled at me.
His words felt like a hard slap!
“You…” he then turned to Shane and looked right into his eyes.
“Never think you will be able to impress me… I thought you have really changed. But now I know you are just trying to get what you want. You are just the same old Shane…” Luke growled at Shane and then left the room without even looking at me. I was just staring at the slammed door for a few seconds without knowing what to do.
After I got out of shock for a bit, I looked at Shane.
He was still staring at the door too… His eyes were filled with tears… His whole face was turned to bloody red!
No words needed to express the deep sadness and pain he is experiencing.
“Shane…” I talked to him gently.
He looked at me like he just woke up after a nightmare…
“Don’t think much about what he said. I don’t know what has gotten into him. I will talk to him…” I said.
“No, Sarah… You don’t have to talk to him… What he told was right, except for what happened today. He knows exactly what type of person I was in the past. So from his side, suspecting me is the right thing to do. He hates me, Sarah… He hates me for how I treated you… I think I deserve that for my stupid actions…” Shane said in a broken voice.
“No!!! You don’t deserve that, Shane… You are trying so hard to change… That is not a fake and not stupid as well…” I said.
“I know you, believe me, Sarah… I know you have even forgiven me… But it seems like Luke has not forgiven me yet… He holds on to the past…” Shane said.
“That is ridiculous… I will talk some sense to him.” I said.
“No… No… You shouldn’t talk to him about this.” he said firmly.
“But why? He can’t treat you like this.” I asked confusedly.
“If he understands me and loves me one day, that should be because he felt my love for him… No one should make him see things. He must see them and understand them on his own…” Shane replied calmly…
I was staring at him as I saw him for the first time. His love for Luke is so deep and matured. Who thought this playboy would turn into such a mature lover?
Luke’s
POV
I came out of the study room, carrying the shattered pieces of my poor heart…
I never thought I would talk to anyone like that. It was so damn hard to keep my voice steady and talk when my heart was aching and begging me to stop.
Since Shane confessed his feelings towards me, everything was really awkward. How much Shane has changed within this short period is totally unbelievable… Even after his confession, I didn’t really expect him to act like this. I thought he would come after me every minute and make my life hell because he is well known to get whatever he wants by any means.
So I did everything possible to avoid meeting him alone… Even when we practice or study, I always made sure that we are surrounded by other people. Shane indeed felt that I avoid meeting him alone, yet he didn’t complain about it at least once… But his eyes clearly explained how much he suffered because of that.
Even when we are together, I tried my best to pretend like he is not there. My communication with him limited to the necessities. He called me a few times, on the next day after our celebration. I didn’t answer his calls. I think he understood that I need some space and time… So he stopped calling me after that. He didn’t even try to talk to me when we are together. But his eyes were always focussed on me, that was hard to miss…
Though he didn’t try to do anything to get close to me, he made sure his presence near me is acknowledged. I don’t even have words to explain how hard it is for me to ignore him totally. I have never felt that uneasy around anyone…
I know Shane’s feelings towards me are genuine and honest. No matter what he did in the past, he always had a special place for me in his heart, I knew that.
When he stopped that bit** from hitting Sarah, and when he told everyone that Sarah is his sister, I was absolutely confirmed that his change is not just to fascinate me. That movement, I really felt the situation is serious than I ever thought.
His love for me is far bigger than I thought… If I say I don’t feel anything for him, that would be a lie. But the problem is can I love him the way he loves me?
Have you ever loved anyone from all your heart? If that person doesn’t love you back, was it easy to change your mind and love someone else the same way? I believe most of you can understand me. I started loving Jake a long time ago… He is my brother, my best friend, and my everything… I don’t think even Sarah can love him as much as I love him. My whole life revolves around him… I don’t think I would ever be able to get rid of these feelings. So how can I start a life with Shane? I won’t be able to commit to Shane and our relationship wholeheartedly. If I face a situation where I have to choose between Jake and my relationship with Shane, without any doubts I would choose Jake. How it will make Shane feels? It would be so unfair for him… Therefore, I had to stop this before he grows up more hopes for me…