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Turning my attention back to my book, I continued to read about mate bonds. It was definitely interesting to learn more about something that affects all of us. Most of this I didn’t even know. The surrounding people in your life can affect the mate bond. You can even choose to accept them without rejecting them. The bond will eventually break, even without a former rejection. Having doubts about yourself can also affect how the bond works. To sum it up, you have to be happy to be happy, which is ridiculous.
But I think it’s me that’s affecting the bond. I’m not whole, like I was before, and that is warping the bond.
How can I be happy when I’m grieving the loss of my wolf? Reading further, I found that you can’t kill your mate without dying yourself. That must be why the mate bond was broken. I wouldn’t have been able to kill Theo without killing myself and Derek and Mason. Selene must have broken the bond. Theo and I shouldn’t have had a bond since he had a chosen mate, but when my hand touched him at the camp, I felt the sparks. But I didn’t feel it with King Jordan.
My head hurt by the time I closed the book, leaning my head back on the couch. James was still sleeping, so I closed my eyes and tried to slow my overactive mind.
“Babygirl?” Derek’s voice called out to me. I opened my eyes to find him sitting on the coffee table across from me.
“Derek, is everything okay?” l asked him, and he sighed.
“No, everything isn’t okay. I’m sorry for what I said yesterday,” he said.
“Derek, you don’t need to apologize for your feelings.” I told him, holding James close. The thought of not having Derek was heartbreaking. I could feel my emotions bubbling to the surface. Derek moved to sit beside me on the couch. He wrapped an arm around my shoulders, pulling me into his chest.
“Babygirl, I need to tell you something, and it’s difficult for me.” He told me.
“You found someone else?” I mumbled into his chest. My heart clenched painfully in my chest.
“What? No, of course not, Babygirl. I love you, our son, and Mason.” He exclaimed, squeezing me closer, k!ssing my head.
“Then, what?” I asked him, pulling away so I could look at him.
“When I told you about my mother, I didn’t tell you the complete story. My father told me that after she finally left, that the bond never felt right with her. And then when I woke up yesterday, and the bond didn’t feel right, I panicked. My mother was an awful person, and I thought maybe it was because of the bond. She hated me just for being my father’s son. And just the thought of our relationship turning into that scared me.” He explained. I snuggled back into his chest, wrapping my free arm around his waist.
“I’m sorry that you didn’t have a happy childhood.
And I can’t explain the bond with your parents, but I may explain what is wrong with our bond.” I told him.
“You know what’s wrong with the bond?” he asked me, confused, and I nodded on his chest.
“Its me. I’m the one causing our bond to not feel right. So what you and Mason have been feeling is me,” I explained.
“Babygirl, I don’t understand. What’s wrong with you?” he asked me and I sighed.
“What isn’t wrong with me? But I’ll explain everything to you and Mason when he’s up.” I told him.
He squeezed me close to him while we sat on the couch together with James still asleep on my chest.
“How are you feeling this morning?” Derek asked me, breaking the silence.
“I’m feeling better now,” I whispered.
“I’m so sorry about yesterday, Babygirl.” He said.
“I should be the one apologizing to you. I did not know what you went through. Ever since we met, it’s been all about me. I feel like l know nothing about you or Mason.” I sighed.
“And that is also our fault. We’ve been so focused on trying to keep you safe that we haven’t had time to be an actual couple. And now we have James. I haven’t even taken you to see my kingdom. So, I’m taking some time off. It will not be the same with all the security we have to have, but it will just be us,” Derek said.
“Just us and our pack” I told him and he groaned, making me giggle.
“We really need to find Liam a mate,” Derek groaned.
“Why haven’t you taken him with you to the dragon kingdom? You never know, he could find his mate there.” I giggled.
“l guess we can take him with us,” he sighed.
“I understand that watching your mother cheat on your father must have been hard. But I would never step out on you, ever. Broken bond or not, you are stuck with me.” I told him and he k!ssed my forehead.
“More like you are stuck with us,” he said.
“Then let’s be stuck together. And we can figure out the rest later. I want you and Mason. Everything else doesn’t matter:” I told him, leaning up, pressing my l!ps to his. Mason came in before Derek could deepen the k!ss. We pulled apart just as Mason sat down on the coffee table in front of us. He was in lounge pants and just a t-shirt.
“No work today?” I asked him and he shook his head.
“You two are my only work today,” he said.
“How are you feeling today, Baby?” Mason asked me.
“I’m better,” I told him.
“Even after that fall?” He asked, raising an eyebrow.
“Yeah, I’m not sure why? I’ll have to talk to Sage.” I told him and he nodded.
“What have you two been up to, besides making out on the couch?” Mason asked with a smirk.
“One k!ss is hardly making out,” I said, rolling my eyes.
“It’s better than a punch,” Derek said, him and Mason both started laughing.
“Punch?” l asked them, confused. I don’t remember punching either of them.
“Mason, punched me off the dock yesterday.” Derek shrugged, and I looked at Mason, stunned.
“Why would you do that?” I asked him.
“Hey, he deserved that hit.” Mason defended.
“Maybe so, but it doesn’t make it right.” I scolded him.
“Fine, but I’m not apologizing for it.” Mason huffed.
“I’m not asking you either. I would have punched myself, too.” Derek said with a laugh.
James raised his little head, and I knew he was now awake.
“My boys up.” Mason said, trying to take him, but James gripped on to my shirt for dear life.
“I think he wants momma,” I told a pouting Mason. Derek was laughing at Mason.
“Clearly, momma is his favorite,” Derek said, and I laughed.
“To be fair, he’s my favorite,” I said, squeezing my boy.
“I was a momma’s boy, so I get it.” Mason said, rubbing James’ back. Looking at Derek and I could see the pain in his eyes. I couldn’t imagine having that one person who is supposed to love you never shows you love.
“Hey, I love you.” I told him, resting my head on his chest. James was blowing his gruel bubbles on my neck.
“I love you, Babygirl,” Derek whispered, pulling me close. Mason squeezed in beside me on the couch.
“l love you, too, Baby,” Mason whispered, k!ssing my cheek. James leaned back, placing one of his hands on Mason’s cheeks, making me laugh. I don’t think he likes anyone touching his momma.
“Hey, you’re supposed to be on my side, little man,” Mason told James.
“Mason, now that you are here, I should probably explain what’s wrong with our bond.” l told him.
“I should probably tell you both what we found at the council building,” Mason said.
“What did you find?”
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“What did you find?” I asked Mason, curious. What could I have fallen into, literally? James kept trying to suck on my neck, and I figured he was hungry.
