Filed to story: The Girl He Craves Book by Demiah
By Aideri’s stance, I knew he must’ve pushed Carson and I wasn’t sure if it was by accident or not.
My heart shatters and my mouth parts I could feel a scream wanting to burst through my mouth but nothing comes. It’s bubbling in my throat when Carson finally stops tumbling but lands awkwardly
Blood so red gushes out of his head and he doesn’t twitch. Carson looked….dead.
I can’t swallow the lump in my throat, I couldn’t understand what I had just witnessed.
This wasn’t real. Carson was still here. He wasn’t dead
He was
My eyes sweep over to Aiden who let out the word fuck. He rushes down the stairs, his eyes wide in horror and the color of his skin ashy white.
When he reaches beside Carson’s motionless body, he suddenly noticed I was there. He looks ready to vomit,
My throat feels so tight and achy as I whispered while taking a shaky step forward. ‘Aiden. what did you do?”
He doesn’t answer, he looks at a lost for words. Just like I was seconds ago.
My heart pounds in my chest and I shook my head in disbelief. This didn’t just happen.
I didn’t just witness my boyfriend’s death.
Boyfriend
Now I felt to vomit. I was the cause of this just as much as Aiden.
I let out a soft cry when I got closer to Carson, forever haunted by his opened eyes. Those eyes that had stared at me with happiness now had no light in them. “Oh Carson…” I cried, mourning.
“Call 911 Sophie!” Aiden rushes out and crouches beside Carson’s still body.
I nodded quickly as I dialed 911 and brought the phone to my ears. I draw in a shaky breath when I hear the pinging sound of the phone ringing.
They answered on the second ring. “911 how may I help you?” The dispatcher asked on the other line.
My bottom lip trembled as I shakily answered. “My boyfriend just fell down a flight of stairs. He’s unresponsive,”
Aiden’s head whips up when he hears the word boyfriend and then he quickly looks down at Carson.
*Please send help quickly.” I rushed out and then gave her the name of the school.
Aiden’s fingers near Carson’s neck where he could feel the pulse. His hands are shaky and I could see the fear in his eyes.
“He has no pulse,” He whispered in dread and horror.
His confirmation that Carson was no longer alive sent pain slicing through me. This was my fault and Aidents. We caused this.
I kneeled beside Carson and reached out to touch his arm. “Oh Carson, I’m so sorry. So so sorry.” I sobbed knowing I had caused this too.
Sophie’s pov
I stared at the casket. The casket that confined Carson’s corpse inside.
My throat burned and every word the priest let out seemed to go on deaf ears.
The only sounds I can focus on was the sound of the pattering rain that fell on the umbrella Ingrid held over my head so I’d not get wet
I think I deserve to get wet. I deserve to feel the cold of the rain. Maybe then I’d start to feel again.
Since Carson’s death a week and a few days ago, I had become numb. I could not feel anymore except for the eating guilt
Ingrid wrapped one of her arms around my midsection and held me close as Carson’s parents wept loudly Their cries were louder than the pattering rain and that did not surprise me.
Mila looks over at me and looks at me in sorrow. She stood beside me and grabbed a hold of my hand. She squeezes it in reassurance
She knew everything. I told her everything. And she knew how fucking messed up I was now after what happened
She was the only one who knew why the two boys were fighting that day.
“Wait. No don’t put my baby in the dirt. Wait no! He’s not dead! He can’t be. I saw him last night. He’s not dead. Don’t put him down yet!” Carson’s mother screamed and started to thrash in her husband’s hold. My stomach churns and I feel disgusted to even be in their presence knowing I was the main reason they lost their son.
I didn’t deserve to be here. I didn’t deserve to recieve everyone’s sympathy while Aiden got nothing but pitchforks thrown at him. They blamed him. They called him the devil.
Everyone turned their backs on him.
But me, everyone was way too sweet, way too nice to me. I didn’t like it. I hated it. I didn’t deserve their words, I didn’t deserve their sympathy. I was the main reason Carson was dead.
If I hadn’t
“No my baby boy! Don’t leave us! Please you can’t leave us! You were supposed to grow old Carson, give us grandchildren. How can you just leave us so soon?!” His mother screamed, tugging forward but her husband who was still visibly crying held her back.
Her words had my heart pinching and my eyes began to water again. I have been crying for so many days, for so many hours that I didn’t know i had any tears left to let out.
But feeling them trail down my cheeks showed me that I still had more than I thought. I wasn’t done crying and I didn’t think I would ever stop
The casket was now being placed down in the hole they had dug up for where he would rest. I felt sick to my stomach.
“Noi Please no Don’t put him down’ He’s okay! He’s here with us! Carson baby come out and stop playing! Carson please stop giving moma anael Carson! Pleasel Carson!’ Hie inom screamed louder, thrashing harder in her husband’s hold.
“Marge he’s gone Carson’s dad cried, hugging his wife tightly
Her bottom hip wobble as she looks down at the casket that wos now her son’s bed. She cried louder. I promise I’ll make that devil pay for what he did to you Carson I’ll make that bastard pay Her words were like a blow to my heart even though they were not directed at me They were directed at Aiden but I felt it I felt their force
And suddenly I couldn’t breathe. I looked up at Ingrid and said shakily with panic “I need to go ” I didn’t wait for her to respond, I just turned around and aimlessly made my way through the people around us “Sorry.” I gasped out when I shouldered someone by accident
“Sophie!” I heard Mila’s voice call out behind me
I needed to get out of here. I didn’t deserve to be here
If Aiden was a devil then I was a demon.
I shook my head, my hair quickly plastering to my face and black dress as the rain shower over me
The heavens felt my sorrow. They felt my guilt. They felt my pain. The rain….. were my tears
Oh Carson. If only you had not spoken to me that day. If only you had not called me pretty girl. You would’ve still been here
You would still be in your mother’s arms. Your parents would still have their son
This was my fault. All of it.
Not only was one boy dead because of me but another was behind bars and would be going for a hearing tomorrow. One that would seal Aiden’s fate.
They found a lot of evidence that showed that Aiden was always malicious to Carson. And on the surveillance camera they saw the two boys engaging into a fight.
They couldn’t hear what they were yelling about but apparently from the angle of the camera, it showed Aiden had either punched or pushed Carson down the stairs.
That was enough to put him behind bars and hold him until his hearing. What made it even worst was that Rena recalled Aiden threatening to kill Carson in the diner when they were fighting.