Filed to story: A Girl Nobody Wanted Book by SansaR
She is the only friend I have other than Jake and Luke. I couldn’t afford to lose her.
“I know that, Sarah… Luke told me that…” she said softly.
“I am so sorry, Sally?” I said, sadly.
“Don’t worry, Sarah… I am glad because he told me that. I have dedicated all my emotions to him for such a long time. So, it is not easy for me. But at least I know that he didn’t reject me because of another girl….” she smiled weakly. I could see her eyes were filled with tears.
Poor Sally!!!
I took her hand and held it tightly.
“Earlier, I thought he doesn’t even know me. But I was wrong. He knows me, and he admires me. If he didn’t care about me, he wouldn’t even bother to tell me. He trusts me a lot to share something like that. Even though I couldn’t become his girlfriend, I have a place in his heart, that’s enough for me,” she said.
How innocent is she? If this is some other girl, would she act like this? Why Luke you couldn’t be just a normal guy and love this wonderful girl? Do you really have to love a jerk like my brother?
“I don’t know what to say, Sally. You are such a beautiful and kind-hearted girl. You will find a great guy one day.” I said.
“I don’t know, Sarah, if I ever can love anyone else. Even though I am aware that I have no chance with him, I can’t stop loving him. To be honest, I love him more than ever. ” she said.
“But Sally… you will have to suffer all your life…” I said.
“It is not suffering, Sarah… Love is not always about getting that person to love you back.”
Why all these people are so selfless… How much they can sacrifice for the person they love… When compared with Luke and Sally, who am I?
Sally and Luke are willing to sacrifice their life, even if they can’t get anything in return from the person they love. The person whom I love loves me back. He loves me and cares about me more than anything. But what am I doing? I always have doubts… I always get worried. I always make him worried.
I am so sorry Jake…
Even last night Jake promised me that he will do everything for us… I should believe in him and I should believe in us… I can’t afford to act like a typical nagging girlfriend. I must be mature than that. I must be a person like Sally and Luke…
“He loves someone so much, doesn’t he?” her question broke me from my thoughts.
“Yeah…” I said, sadly.
“I wish he could get him to love him back…” she said.
“I wish that too, Sally…” but before everything, I wish my brother would become a proper person to receive love from a person like Luke… Otherwise, it won’t be a happy ending for them…
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After the lectures, I was walking towards the cafe.
I heard my phone rang. I took it out quickly, praying God it would be from Jake… It was just a few hours. But I miss him so much…
But it was not from Jake… The call was from Mr. Patterson!!!
I was staring at the phone, thinking if I should answer the call or not.
I was just staring at my phone, thinking if I should answer the call or not. I didn’t see him at the university today, as well. Why is he calling me now?
I decided not to answer the phone.
But as soon as the call ended, he called me once again. I didn’t answer the phone at that time also.
But he called again.
What the hell? Maybe this is something important. If not, he won’t call me back to back.
So, I answered the phone.
“Hello…” I said.
“Sarah… Thank God you answered. Are you busy? Where are you?” he asked.
“Well, Mr. Patterson, I am heading to the caf? for my shift,” I said.
“Sarah… Can you please give me a few minutes? I need to talk to you.” He said. His voice sounded so broken. It seems like he is in some kind of trouble.
I relay needed to tell him that I can’t talk to him right now. But when I heard his voice, I couldn’t make up my mind to say that. “Yes, Mr. Patterson… ” I replied.
“Sarah… My mom is going to die… The person I love most in this world is going to die, Sarah and I can’t do anything about it. I am so damn helpless…” he said. Is he crying? His voice sounded like that. I felt really sorry for him. “Oh! Mr. Patterson, I am really sorry to hear that. What has happened?” I asked sadly.
“She was so ill last week, Sarah… But we didn’t think her condition would get this worst. She was admitted to the hospital yesterday. She was unconscious since then. Doctors are trying their best but… They say it is very hard to keep any expectations… I don’t know what to do, Sarah… She is the person who always guided me, supported me, and loved me unconditionally. If something happens to her, I don’t know how am I going to survive.”
God! This is terrible! I don’t have a strong relationship with my mom, still, I can’t even think of losing her. So, if his mom loves him so much, I can’t even imagine how much of a pain he is going through… That’s true, I think he is creepy, and I don’t even want to talk with him. But I didn’t remember any of those at that time. I only felt sorry for him. No one deserves such pain…
“Mr. Patterson, please be strong… Believe in God… Everything would be alright… She will recover soon…” I said. I don’t really know what to say in this kind of situation.
“She got sick like this a few times previously. But all those times, doctors had a hope that they could save her. But this time, even they don’t have a hope…” he was crying.
“Mr. Patterson… Please, don’t cry… Please, don’t lose hope…” his cries were actually making me crying too…
Completely forgetting that I have to start my shift at the caf?, I sat on a nearby bench.
“I am not close to my dad, Sarah… I barely speak with him even at home. It was always my mom who made our family stays together… I don’t even have many friends, Sarah… Even the friends I have are totally worthless in a situation like this. I feel so left alone, Sarah… I feel like I have no one in this world even to share my pain…”
“I am here for you, Mr. Patterson… Please don’t feel like that…” God! If I knew how much I have to regret those words later in my life, I would have never said them at that time. But in that situation, those words felt exactly right. You can call me a dumb girl… But I have suffered alone in my entire life, and I exactly know how painful it is when you don’t even have someone to share your suffering… I couldn’t be heartless to just ignore him.
“I knew you would say that, Sarah… That’s why I called you instead of anyone else,” he said.
“I have gone through a lot, Sarah… When I was in university, I loved a girl. I loved her so much, she was exactly the same. She was like an angel… So innocent… So kind… Everyone loved her… We were planning to get married too… But everything changed so quickly. I lost her from an accident… I wanted to kill myself too… I didn’t want to live in a world without her… I behaved like a completely mad person in those days… It was my mom and her love that brought me back to life… She is the one who taught me that I must live for my little Lilly, and make her dreams come true… Now if I lose her too, who will bring me back to my life, Sarah? Who will do that for me… For whom I should live anymore?” he was asking.
I didn’t know what to say… I felt like I lost the ability to speak… I never thought he has gone through such a tragic incident… This situation must be unimaginably painful for him because he is going to lose someone he loves so much once again…
“Mr. Patterson… Please… Don’t talk like that… You have to be strong for both your girlfriend and your mom… Do you think they like to see you crying like this?” finally I managed to ask.
“I don’t know, Sarah… I don’t know what should I do… I feel completely lost… I am wasting your time too… You have to go to the caf?, right? I am so sorry, I kept you this long…” he said worriedly.
“Please, don’t worry about that. I can skip the shift. That doesn’t matter. I am here to listen to you as much as you want…” I said…