Filed to story: A Girl Nobody Wanted Book by SansaR
No matter how much I try to control my thoughts, I couldn’t just ignore the rationality behind my thoughts as well…
There is one rational explanation of all these… The way Luke loves this person… The way he cares about that person’s happiness more than his own happiness… The fact that he wants to keep it a secret from even me and Jake… Yes… There is only one logical reason I can think of…
The person he loves is none other than…
No!!! God!!! No!!!! This can’t happen…
Please, God… Please, let me be wrong… I don’t know how can I bare if I am correct…
Can anyone’s life be more complicated than this?
I thought I finally found my happy place… But if I am correct regarding Luke, then this is not a happy place…
What should I do now?
Yes… I should talk to him before anything. I can be wrong too… I should definitely talk to him.
He can’t just avoid my questions anymore. I have to make him answer me.
I grabbed my phone, which was beside me on the bed.
I was about to dial Luke’s number when I noticed the current time. My God! It is already 2 pm. I didn’t feel time passing at all. There is no use of calling him now.
“I want to meet you the first thing in the morning.” I sent him a text.
I was still in the same clothes that I wore to university. I felt really exhausted, physically as well as mentally.
I went to take a bath, trying to comfort my self.
I was feeling hungry too but I didn’t feel like eating anything. Therefore, after taking a bath, I just lied down on my bed. I have engaged in my own thoughts once again. All the happy memories that I have with both Luke and Jake were flashing back in my mind. My eyes filled with tears… I want all three of us to be happy… I just want that…
Luke’s POV
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After dropping Sarah at her place, I drove really fast. I didn’t feel like going to my cousin’s house too. So, I stopped the car on the roadside and called my relatives to inform them that I won’t be able to come today. Then I turned the vehicle and went home.
I was feeling so pathetic. I was planning to tell her that I am gay… But I never expected to tell her that I love someone… I don’t know what made me tell her all this.
She is a smart girl… Honestly, she is one of the smartest girls I have ever met in my life. So, my only fear was, could she sort out who I love… I think I spoke too much… I revealed too many details…
Please, God! Don’t let her think more about this… If she knows the truth, she will be devastated… I can’t even imagine how she will react.
You are so stupid Luke… She just found happiness in her life. Your stupidity can ruin everything for her…
I was blaming my self and praying God that she won’t think deeply about anything…
But making my worst fear a reality, I got a text from her…
“I want to meet you the first thing in the morning.”
She knows!!!!
There is no doubt in that… You better prepare for it, idiot…
Yeah… I need a perfect plan… I must make her believe me. It won’t be that easy. She feels us, both me and Jake… You can lie to a person who is not close to you, but when it comes to a person who is very close to your heart, it is so damn hard. But I need to do my best…
I need to make her believe every word I am going to say… I don’t care what limits I have to break in that process…
Sarah’s POV
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Luke came to pick me up at around 7.30 in the morning.
“Where you want to go?” he asked after I got into his car.
“Somewhere we can talk freely…” I replied.
“Let’s go to my house…” he said.
I agreed. He drove us to his house. Both of us were extremely quiet throughout the drive…
This is the first time I came to his house. The house looked almost like Jake’s house. Small but luxurious.
“Sit…” he said, showing me the sofa.
“You need something to eat? I have some sandwiches…” he said.
Fu** the sandwiches. I just want to talk to you. I wanted to say… But I was so hungry too… I was so close to vomiting with my empty stomach.
So, I nodded.
After a few minutes, he brought me some sandwiches and coffee.
We ate in silence.
“Give me, I will wash…” he said, taking the plate from my hand.
Carrying our plates and mugs, he went to the kitchen. I followed him.
He was washing the plates, paying his full attention. Like it was the most complicated job in this world. He is obviously trying to buy more time. But I can’t let him… I couldn’t get any sleep all night… I want answers… “It is Jake, isn’t it?” I asked, trying my very best to be strong.
“What?” he asked after a small pause. He was still turning his back to me. He was still cleaning those damn plates and mugs…
“The person you love… It is Jake, am I right?” I asked again.
“What?” he said again. But this time he was laughing.
“Why are you laughing?” I asked annoyingly.