Filed to story: A Girl Nobody Wanted Book by SansaR
“No, Princess… This is not a dream… This is a dream came true. This is our dream came true.” he said, kissing my head again.
“Do you know how long I have been obsessed with you?” he asked in a whispering tone.
What? He has been obsessed with me!!! How that even possible? Mighty prince charming been obsessed with a girl nobody wanted…
“When I see you first time at a high school competition, I was awed by how smart you are. Though we won that day, I still remember how you gave a very good fight all alone even after your teammates accepted the defeat. That day I fall for your brain…” I was totally shocked and not able to say anything in reply.
“I know its highly unusual for a guy to fall in love with a girl’s brain…” he said, smiling.
Well… I was just shocked to know that he has known me since those days. It was highly unusual for him to fall in love with any part of me actually.
“I hate girls who act so dumb and always ready to throw themselves at guys. You were smart, independent, and you knew how to maintain your honor as a girl.”
“Day by day, I started to grow feelings for you. It is not just you who participated for every competition and functions thinking I would come, I did the same thinking you would participate them…” he kept on saying, having me still in his arms.
I couldn’t even believe my own ears… He didn’t even smile with me those days… He was like… He doesn’t even know that I do exist in this world. So how these are possible? If he liked me since then, why didn’t he show me any sign?
“I wanted to hold you like this and tell you how I feel…”
“Why you didn’t do that? You act like you don’t even know who am I.” I gathered up the courage to tell.
He broke our hug and looked at my eyes…
“I did it because I want to assure your safety,” he said.
“I don’t really understand, Jake. Luke also said you don’t want to reveal yourself because you want to protect me. I don’t understand from whom or from what you are trying to protect me…” I asked the question that I wanted to ask since Luke’s birthday party. Without answering me, he grabbed my hand and walked towards the sofa. Then he sat on the sofa and made me sit next to him.
“During high school, I thought I should never let you come into my life. But when I saw you on the same campus, and when I got to know that we are both in the same batch, I could not resist me from falling for you more and more. Especially when I saw how cruel others treat you, that made me want to kill all of them. I started to search more about you. Luke helped me a lot in everything. We found out about everything related to you. I asked Luke to be with Shane, so we know what he is up to. However, day by day I suffered, seeing you getting bullied and not being able to help you. I want to get close to you by any means. That’s why I started texts with you.”
“I… I… I don’t get it. Then why you didn’t tell me your feelings. You could have just told me without start texting with me.”
“Do you believe me?” he asked, holding both of my hands close to his heart.
My eyes filled with tears… I believed him even before I know his real identity. Now I know who he really is. So why don’t I believe him?
“I believe you…” I said between my tears.
“Then please, believe me, Sarah, I did everything to protect you. But I am not in a position to tell you why I need to protect you. I am so sorry that I have to keep secrets. But believe me, I will be able to let you know everything really soon.”
“If you can’t tell me that, then why you let me know it is you who texts with me. Don’t tell me you left your phone here by mistake.”
“When I got to know you think it is Luke and you… you kissed him that day… I cried, Sarah… I fu**ing cried because I was so helpless… It made me think about what will happen if you get mistaken for another guy. With Luke, I knew you are safe. That’s why I asked him not to tell you. But with what happened that night he had to tell you. I couldn’t spend a second after that without being worried about you. So, when I found you yesterday in that position, I felt like I had almost lost everything. I decided I must tell you.” his voice was filled with pain and sadness.
“It is torture, Sarah… It is a fu**ing torture to see you every day and not being able to tell you.” is he crying? His eyes looked all watery.
“Jake… “I touched his cheek gently.
“You can tell me the reason, on any day you think is suitable. I can live without knowing anything if I have you by my side.” I said hugging him again.
“I am always with you my princess… I will never leave you…” he said kissing my head.
“Sarah, please don’t hate me for what I am going to tell now. Please don’t get angry…” he said breaking the hug and looking at my face…
I was so damn afraid… What is he going to tell me now?
I drew my self a bit away from him and stared into his eyes. My heart started to beat faster without knowing what he is going to tell me. “I want to keep us a secret…” he said, softly.
I knew this was coming, right? The moment he told me that he can’t tell me why he wants to protect me, I knew we can’t be seen together outside. Though I knew that deep down my heart, hearing it from him was painful. It was so painful and heartbroken.
Removing myself entirely from him, I took my legs up on the sofa and buried my face between my own legs. I couldn’t resist my tears falling down. “Babe…” his voice was filled with sadness and pain.
He put his hand around me and started rubbing my head.
“Please don’t cry… I can’t stand your tears, please… “he was saying.
I don’t know why, but I couldn’t stop crying.
He forcefully raised my head and looked into my eyes, as I didn’t stop crying.
“Sarah…” his eyes were also filled with tears.
“I know it is painful… I am really sorry. I make you cry. Even after I tell you who am I, I am not able to stop you from crying… I am sorry…” he said, trying to wipe off the tears from my cheeks. He was holding my face in both of his hands.
I couldn’t bear when he keeps on apologizing to me. He doesn’t deserve to apologize to a girl like me.
“I am so helpless, princess. I don’t even own my life. Maybe this is all a mistake. I should not let you come to my life and suffer like this…” I have never heard him speaking this broke.
“No!!!” I screamed.
He looked at me with his eyes stretched.
“Suffering is not something new to me, Jake. Even though I don’t enter your life, I will suffer. There was nothing in my life than suffering since I can remember. But with you… I am willing to suffer… If it means I have you by my side… There is no happiness in my life other than you…” I managed to tell among tears.
“I just fell sad because you know… I am such an unfortunate girl. I can’t let anyone knows about my brother… Now I can’t let anyone knows about you as well… I feel like my whole life is nothing but a big secret…” “Babe…” he hugged me again.
“I want to scream to the whole world that you are mine… Mine only… I can’t stand even when other guys look at you… You are my precious princess… My life and my soul… I don’t know why you have to keep Shane is your brother as a secret. But when it comes to us… This is just a temporary thing… After that, I will let the whole world know about us…” he said, kissing my head.
My life and my soul… his word was repeating in my mind… God!!! He loves me so much… Cold, arrogant Jake loves me that much…
“So… Until that… You will have to pretend to be the same cold, arrogant jerk who doesn’t even know that a girl named Sarah exists in this world…” I said.
“What!” he asked, breaking the hug and looking at my face.
“That’s how you think of me?” he asked, scratching his head.
“What?”
“You think about me as a cold, arrogant jerk?”
His tone and facial expression made me laugh… God! How wonderful it to laugh with him.