Filed to story: A Girl Nobody Wanted Book by SansaR
Then I started walking towards the gate still in a daze, I was about to cross the road to get to the other side when I was almost hit by a car. I fell on to the ground, not because I was hit, but because I got so damn panicked.
The car stopped. It was a beautiful red Ferrari. the shutter of the driver side went down and I saw Jake put his head outside. Oh My GOD!!! Didn’t I have enough humiliation in front of him? Why are you playing with my poor self like this?
I stood up immediately to show I am totally fine. Please don’t even try to come and check I am not even scratched.
After seeing me stood up, he pulled his head in and the next moment the red Ferrari sped out of my sight.
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I was looking at my phone anxiously, it was 6 pm now. Nearly 3 hours passed since that horrible incident. Still no messages from him.
I know, I can’t expect him to text me after everything that has happened. But what can I really do? How am I going to explain to him everything?
I stayed another hour looking at my phone. I can’t wait anymore. I should ask for his forgiveness.
But how should I bring up the topic? If I directly say, I didn’t mean it please forgive me. I was forced to do that… then it will clearly indicate that I know he was there and I have an idea about his identity.
Maybe I have to put it in a different way…
“I think you already know what has happened. Please believe me I didn’t mean any of that. I was forced to do that. Britany, Mia and Amy forced me to do that.” I sent him.
“I don’t love him, believe me. “I sent again.
There was no reply from him, and it was time to prepare dinner.
I quickly made dinner, but my mind was on my phone, I even burnt my finger. I was checking my phone from minute to minute, but there was no reply.
He must be really mad at me. Can I blame him? If he did the same thing, would I easily forget that? No way I would put a big drama here.
After arranged the dinner to the table, I returned to my room. I checked his WhatsApp profile, last seen 7 hours ago.
I sighed and kept the phone on the bed. What should I do, if he doesn’t reply to me at all?
Should I directly go to him and explain everything in person? Or should I wait until he cools down and texts me? I am going crazy…
“I know you angry and you have all the rights to be angry. But can you please at least send me a single text? No need to type anything, just a blank text” I sent him. I knew I sound so desperate, but I didn’t care. Making him talk to me was far more important for me. After everyone finished eating I went down and cleaned. I didn’t feel hungry at all, though I had nothing inside my stomach as I threw up everything in the afternoon.
After I come back to my room, I sent him another text. “Please send me one blank text, your silence is killing me”
“I know you are hurt and you are angry. But you have to trust me please” I didn’t know how many messages I sent him so far.
“Don’t you ask me if I ate or not?” I tried another tactic.
“You know I am not feeling well, I threw everything I ate in the afternoon. I am feeling really lifeless right now. But I don’t feel like eating” he can’t stand it when I am sick, so he must text me right now asking me to go and eat.
but he didn’t. It was 2 am now and nothing from him.
“Are you sleeping? You know I can’t even sleep though I am exhausted. Please… please send me a text… please don’t ignore me like this. I don’t have anyone. you are everything I have. Please don’t be angry with me.” I sent again. I was going super crazy, and I had no idea what I was doing.
I dialed his number. I really dialed his number.
His phone rang, but he didn’t answer. I kept on dialing his number. 20 times… 30 times… 40 times… I can’t really remember…
I think I fell into sleep… while dialing his number…
I woke up with a killing headache to the sound of my alarm.
I stop the alarm while massaging my forehead from one hand and put the phone on the bed again.
Then I remember what I was doing last night… I quickly grab the phone… one new message.
Thank God! you have listened to my prayers.
I opened it as quickly as I could.
“You must learn to stand up for your self. This must be the last time someone forced you to do something”
“You must learn to stand up for your self. This must be the last time someone forced you to do something” I was staring at his message, for God knows how long. I was happy that he finally replied, but he seems still angry. It was a command, not a request. He must be pissed off.
I knew the main reason for all my problems is lack of confidence. I always wanted to stand up for my self, but I was too much afraid. When people began to bully me first whilst in school, I complained to one of my teachers. She took the required actions almost immediately and punished them, but after that, it was a total nightmare.
I got beaten so badly, and they warn me that they will kill me if I dare to complain against them ever again. No one even let me sit near them or they didn’t want me in their groups for groups projects. They called me a traitor! The frequency of their insults increased dramatically.
For once I thought of complaining again, which I later realized not going to work.
After that incident, I determined I should let them do whatever they want.
I sighed. Even remembering that horrible incident made me shivered. I never want to go through the same again. But now he demands that he wants me to be strong and stand up. No matter what inner fears I have, I was ready to do whatever he asks, because these few hours he made himself away from me, made me realize how much I need him. How much I longing for his texts, his caring, and his love.
“I was so afraid to go against them, but now since I have you by my side I am going to try “I sent him.
After a few minutes, he replied.
“Not just trying you must do that. I am so sick of seeing, how you get forced all the time.”
“Yes. I will. I promise you. Since I am sure, you are always with me” I replied quickly.
“You don’t have to worry about that. I will always be with you,” he responded.
That’s the only thing I wanted. Please don’t leave me, I don’t know how I can live without you. I don’t know, what charm you did on me, but you have become my life, within these few days. “Thank you. That’s all I want” I replied.
After finished making breakfast I came back to my room. I was in hesitation. I couldn’t decide I should go to lectures today or not.
Every single person in university may already know everything. They are going to make fun out of me for sure. They won’t spare me for at least a week, but today it would be worst as it is still a piece of hot news.
I was imagining all the humiliation that I might have to go through while massaging my still aching head. Maybe I should stay home, I have this damn headache as well.
But right then I saw my phone which reminded me of the promise I made to Luke. Oh God! I promised him that I would be strong, didn’t I? Then how can I hide in the home like a lost bunny?
I have to go to university, no matter what happens I have to keep my promise.