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“Control yourself,” I say with a nervous laugh, hoping she won’t catch on to how I’ve imagined all kinds of things with Kaden’s brother. “You’re here for business, remember?”
“Damn straight! You’ve gotta talk to him for us. It’s obvious he’s into you.”
“Talk to him…?” No way is she asking what I think she’s asking.
“Yeah, hook the band up. Please?” She bats her long lashes at me. “If anyone can get us a gig here, it’s you.”
Fuck. After everything Les and the guys have done for me, I can’t tell her no. But the thought of asking Kaden for anything fills me with unease. Just like she picked up on Kaden’s interest only minutes ago, I also felt it from the moment we first met at Mont Center. If only he were Cash.
If only Cash weren’t married.
If only…
“C’mon, Jules.
Pleeeease. I promise I’ll never call you Julie Bean again.”
I burst out laughing. She called me that once, and after learning that it was a pet name my sister gave me, she swore to never do it again. “No need to pull out the big guns, Les. I’ll talk to him.”
She dances in her seat, squealing her excitement. “Thank you, thank you, thank you. This is meant to be—I can feel it.”
Shane places Lesley’s drink on the counter before setting a tall glass of ice water in front of me. “Sure I can’t get you anything else?” His mouth is wide and sensuous, and if I weren’t so hung up on a man I can’t have, I might find the bartender attractive.
“I’m sure.”
“Holler if you change your mind,” he says before moving away to tend to other clubbers.
I turn my attention on Lesley again. Sipping her drink, she looks at me with teasing eyes.
“What?” I ask, raising a brow.
“You’ve got ’em eating out of your hand tonight, Jules. What’s your secret?”
Mentally, I scoff. Maybe I’ve got a flashing neon sign on my forehead that says only interested in unattainable men. Seems like it’s human nature to chase what you can’t have. “I’m not the only one. A certain brooding guitarist only has eyes for you.”
She almost chokes on her drink. “What did you say?”
“You heard me.”
The mirth in her expression disappears, and I almost feel bad, except that turning the conversation on her takes it off of me.
“I don’t know what you mean,” she says, but as she sets her drink down on the counter with a frown, I know that she knows exactly what I mean.
“I’m talking about Zan.” I soften my tone. This must be a touchy subject for her, otherwise, she would have told me by now. Just like I would have told her about Cash…if the situation weren’t so sticky. “He’s got it bad for you, Les. And I’m not blind. I’ve seen the way you look at him too.”
She facepalms with a groan. “If you’ve noticed it, then the guys probably have too.”
I shake my head as the band members return to the stage. “I don’t think so. The only one who might have picked up on it is Leo, but that’s only because he knows you as well as I do.”
“That’s the worst-case scenario! Garen probably won’t give two fucks, but Leo will give Zan hell if anything happens. It could tear the band apart.”
“Is that why you haven’t done anything about it?”
“Well, yeah. That, and Zan and I haven’t really…talked about it.”
Kind of like Cash and me. We both know the attraction is there, but neither of us are willing to put it into words because the two of us can’t be.
It’s then I realize that Les and Zan are also in a forbidden situation. Leo is protective—make that overprotective
—and he won’t handle his bandmate hooking up with his little sister very well.
Lesley’s attention darts over my shoulder, and when I turn I find Kaden heading for us again. She grabs my hand and squeezes. “We’ll talk about my lack of a love life later. Go work your magic.”
With a gulp, I hop down from the barstool and meet Kaden halfway. The first strains of a haunting rock ballad begin, and I shout above the speakers. “Is there a place where we can talk?”
With a nod, he gestures for me to precede him toward the staircase leading up to that mysterious place on the second floor. Just like his brother, he’s a gentleman and allows me to go first. The hired muscle at the bottom of the stairs nods at Kaden as he steps to the side to let us pass.
My heart gives a nervous thump behind my breastbone as we climb the stairs to the VIP area. The space is in eerie shadow, yet inviting too, with scattered comfy sofas and chairs grouped together. I spy the stage from the edge of the railing, and the dance floor looks like a zoo of a party from this angle.
Kaden ushers me to a couch and doesn’t sit until I do. He settles next to me, keeping a respectable distance, yet close enough to have a conversation over the music, which drifts up to us at a tolerable level.
“What’s up?” he asks.
As I meet his eyes—eyes that look so much like Cash’s yet they’re not—I wring my hands in my lap. “I hate to ask this, since you hardly know me, but my friend would sacrifice her firstborn to land a gig here.”
Tilting his head toward the busy floor below, he asks, “Your friend down there?”
“Yeah. She’s in a band. They’re really good. I’ve heard them play. If you’d consider talking to her—“
“I’m happy to give them a listen,” he interrupts, “if you’ll go out with me.”
I blink a couple of times before I’m able to find words. “Like a…a date?”
“Exactly like a date. You know, where two people go to dinner or a movie, or all the above.” He’s teasing me, his eyes bright and crinkling around the corners. For a second, I can almost forget he’s not Cash. The feeling is fleeting, and so alarming that I unwittingly scoot away from him by a few inches. Going out with Cash’s twin would just be…
A whole new level of low. Sick and wrong. I can’t look at Kaden without thinking of his brother and wishing he were him. And I like Kaden too much to do that to him. I don’t know him well, but he seems too nice to jerk around. He’ll never be a substitute for Cash.
“I…I can’t. I’m sorry.”
He leans toward me, invading my space in a non-threatening way. “It’s only one date, Jules. I won’t bite, I promise. Unless you want me to.”
Jesus, what am I getting myself into?
“You’re my boss’ brother,” I point out, hoping that will deter him.
“That’s true, and I can’t help that. Is Cash an ass to work for? I can try to look less like him, if that will help.” His eyes are laughing at me again. He’s at ease in his own skin, confident in his charming smile and flirtatious personality. Normally, it might work on me, but the problem isn’t that Cash is a mean boss.
Quite the opposite, actually.
And that’s the problem, but I can’t tell Kaden that.