Filed to story: The One That Got Away
He seems to sense this. The irritated furrow of his brow is loosening. “Well, my car looks fine,” he says reluctantly. “Are you all right?”
I nod again. “I’m so sorry,” I say.
“Kids need to be more careful,” the man says, as if I haven’t spoken.
The lump in my throat is getting bigger. “I’m very, very sorry, sir.”
He makes a grunty sound. “You should call someone to come get you,” the man says. “Do you want me to wait?”
“No, thank you.” What if he’s a serial killer or a child molester? I don’t want to be alone with a strange man.
The man drives off.
As soon as he’s gone, it occurs to me that maybe I should have called the police while he was still here. Aren’t you always supposed to call the police when you’re in a car accident, no matter what? I’m pretty sure they told us that in driver’s ed. So that’s another mistake I made.
I sit down on the kerb and stare at Alice’s car. I’ve only had it for two hours and I’ve already wrecked it. I rest my head in my lap and sit in a tight bundle. My neck is starting to ache. This is when the tears start. My dad is not going to be happy. Alice is not going to be happy. They’ll both probably agree that I have no business driving around town unsupervised, and maybe they’re right. Driving a car is a lot of responsibility. Maybe I’m not ready for it yet. Maybe I’ll never be ready. Maybe even when I’m old, my sisters or my dad will have to drive me around, because that’s how useless I am.
I pull out my phone and call Josh. When he answers, I say, “Josh, can you do me a f-f-favour?” and my voice comes out so wobbly I’m embarrassed.
Which of course he hears, because he’s Josh. He comes to attention immediately and says, “What’s wrong?”
“I just got into a car accident. I don’t even know where I am. Can you come get me?” Wobble wobble.
“Are you hurt?” he demands.
“No, I’m fine. I’m just-” If I say another word, I will cry.
“What street signs do you see? What stores?”
I crane my neck to look. “Falstone,” I say. I look for the closet mailbox. “I’m at 8109 Falstone Road.”
“I’m on my way. Do you want me to stay on the phone with you?”
“No, that’s OK.” I hang up and start to cry.
I don’t know how long I’ve been sitting there crying when another car rolls up in front of me. I look up, and it’s Louis Kavinsky’s black Audi with the tinted windows. One of them rolls down. “Bella? Are you OK?”
I nod my head yes and make a motion like he should just go. He rolls the window back up, and I think he’s really going to drive off, but then he pulls over to the side and parks. He climbs out and starts inspecting my car. “You really messed it up,” he says. “Did you get the other guy’s insurance info?”
“No, his car was fine.” Furtively, I wipe my cheeks with my arm. “It was my fault.”
“Do you have Triple A?”
I nod.
“So you called them already?”
“No. But someone’s coming.”
Louis sits down next to me. “How long have you been sitting here crying by yourself?”
I turn my head and wipe my face again. “I’m not crying.”
Louis Kavinsky and I used to be friends, back before he was Kavinsky, when he was Louis K. There was a whole gang of us in middle school. The boys were Louis Kavinsky and John Ambrose McClaren and Trevor Pike. The girls were Genevivian and me and Allie Feldman who lived down the block, and sometimes Chris. Growing up, Genevivian lived two streets away from me. It’s funny how much of childhood is about proximity. Like who your best friend is is directly correlated to how close your houses are; who you sit next to in music is all about how close your names are in the alphabet. Such a game of chance. In eighth grade Genevivian moved to a different neighbourhood, and we stayed friends a little while longer. She’d come back to the neighbourhood to hang out, but something was different. By high school Genevivian had eclipsed us. She was still friends with the boys, but the girls’ crew was over. Allie and I stayed friends until she moved last year, but there was always something just a little bit humiliating about it, like we were two leftover heels of bread and together we made a dry sandwich.
We’re not friends any more. Me and Genevivian or me and Louis. Which is why it’s so weird to be sitting next to him on somebody’s kerb like no time has passed.
His phone buzzes and he takes it out of his pocket. “I’ve gotta go.”
I sniffle. “Where are you headed?”
“To Gen’s.”
“You’d better get going then,” I say. “Genevivian will be mad if you’re late.”
Louis makes a pfft sound, but he sure does get up fast. I wonder what it’s like to have that much power over a boy. I don’t think I’d want it; it’s a lot of responsibility to hold a person’s heart in your hands. He’s getting into his car when, as an afterthought, he turns around and asks, “Want me to call Triple A for you?”
“No, that’s OK,” I say. “Thanks for stopping though. That was really nice of you.”
Louis grins. I remember that about Louis – how much he likes positive reinforcement. “Do you feel better now?”
I nod. I do, actually.
“Good,” he says.
He has the look of a Handsome Boy from a different time. He could be a dashing World War I soldier, handsome enough for a girl to wait years for him to come back from war, so handsome she could wait for ever. He could be wearing a red letterman’s jacket, driving around in a Corvette with the top down, one arm on the steering wheel, on his way to pick up his girl for the sock hop. Louis’s kind of wholesome good looks feel more like yesterday than today. There’s just something about him girls like.
He was my first kiss. It’s so strange to think of it now. It feels like for ever ago, but really it was just four years.
Josh shows up about a minute later, as I’m texting Chris that I’m not going to make it to the mall after all. I stand up. “It took you long enough!”
“You told me 8109. This is 8901!”