Filed to story: A Girl Nobody Wanted Book by SansaR
“Of course, Jake… You did…” she said, making me astonished. Has she gone crazy?
“Look at this before you say anything…” she searched something on her phone and gave it to me.
It was a photo… A photo of her and me…
We both were half-naked… I had removed my shirt, and she was on her bra and a short skirt… We were in that visitor’s room of her house. She was sitting on my lap and taking this selfie… God! When did we take a photo like this? I can’t remember a thing. “Don’t say you can’t remember anything about that night, Jake… We both enjoyed a lot. You even said it in a text the next morning.” she said. “What text are you talking about?” I asked confusedly.
She took her phone from me and searched for something and then handed me back.
It was a chat between us… God! When did I send these messages to her… Have I lost memory or something? Why can’t I remember any of these?
That chat seems legitimate… Other than the few texts about that night, all the other messages are real messages I sent her.
“I don’t remember any of these…” I said, confusedly stroking my head…
“You got so drunk that night, Jake… Not just you, me also… Finally, we were out of control, and we did it….” she said.
What I really did that? How could that happen? I don’t get drunk like that. I couldn’t understand what has really happened.
“Marina… Look into my eyes…” I asked her… She did as I said… She started staring at my eyes without even blinking. “Is that really happened?” I asked.
“Yes, Jake… I don’t know how you don’t remember at least a single thing,” she said sadly.
“Did we really had s*x?” I asked again… My heart was aching, and my head was throbbing… How could I so careless to do such a mistake… How could I lose my guards like that?
“You said Sarah’s name a few times, maybe you thought I am Sarah… But yes, we really did it…”
“It seems you were conscious though you were drunk, so why didn’t you try to stop me?” I asked angrily. If I said Sarah’s name as well, then she should have just prevented me from doing such a horrible thing.
“How can I, Jake, when I was craving to have that with you…” she said gently.
“What? What the fu** did you just said?”
“Yes, Jake… It is true, I told you I don’t need any serious relationships. I agreed to just pretend to be your girlfriend… But in the process, I couldn’t help falling love with you… Don’t blame me, Jake… Your charm is so hard to resist…” she replied… “What the fu**? Are you insane, Marina… I considered you as a friend and as a sister… How could you do this to me?”
“Please forgive me, Jake… I tried my best to hold my feelings towards you. But when you talk more and more about Sarah with me and when I observe how much you love and care about her, it made me realize I also need someone to take care of me like that. I didn’t need anyone else, I wanted you… I wanted you to love and care about me in the same way you do for Sarah…”
“So when I get the chance, I didn’t want to lose it… I thought I should at least have one night, one beautiful memory with you… When you texted me the next day and told you also enjoyed having s*x with me, you don’t know how much it made me happy…” “I didn’t send those texts, Marina and I don’t remember any of these… Why didn’t you ever talk about this with me?” I asked.
“You said we shouldn’t repeat this ever again, so I thought it is better to not discuss it again…” she replied.
“If you didn’t want to discuss it with me even, then why you told everything with Sarah?” I asked angrily. She has intentionally done it to break up us, right?
“I didn’t want to do that, Jake… But she became so aggressive after seeing me in the hospital because I got the opportunity to see you, but she didn’t get that opportunity. She started a lame fight with me, and I lost my control…” Marina said apologetically… I released a sigh… I have drifted a state that I couldn’t think of anything, my mind was completely blank… I felt nothing… No emotions at all… I was just staring at the wall blankly…
“Jake!!! Jake!!!” Marina started to shout, shaking my hand…
Then only I came back to reality… Well… The reality was extremely painful, and the self-loathing I felt was unbearable.
I looked at Marina… She was looking at me worriedly…
She is not wrong, she had just told what actually happened… Indeed she should have stopped me doing it, but I can’t blame her for that. I should have self-control… I should take responsibility for my actions.
I don’t know how I don’t remember any of those things. I don’t know how I sent those texts the next morning and don’t remember anything at all…
Anyway, Marina seems like she is telling the truth. Also, that photo… God! I want to bury myself after seeing that…
Everything felt so complicated and confused…
I didn’t know what to believe more… My instincts or the clear evidence I have in front of me…
I think I have to believe what is clearly in front of me.
So, have I really done that? Have I really had s*x with another woman behind Sara’s back… That is cheating… Even though I don’t remember doing that…
My princess… My poor princess… How could I do such a thing to you? I know when I kissed Marina, how that made you feel, so if you know that I really had slept with another woman, how sad it will make you?
I didn’t really know what should I do now?
I have never disgusted anyone than I am disgusting myself right now…
Anyway, I should meet Sarah and tell her the truth. I must apologize. Then she can make any decisions… At least then she can forget a disgusting person like me and have a better life with Andrew who loves her so much despite his other bad activities…
Jake’s
POV
I told Luke about everything Marina told me and showed me…
“That bit** she is clearly lying to you,” he said, angrily.
“I don’t think so, Luke. Maybe I really did that, though I can’t remember.” I said.
“Are you mad? When is the last time you got drunk, or let me ask like this, have you ever get drunk?” he asked.
I shook my head thoughtfully. He is right, I don’t get drunk. I know my limit.
“Then how you got that drunk and forgot everything you did? If she has taken such a photo, then she must have drugged you without any doubts. Maybe you really did that because you were drugged.” he said. “I never thought Marina can do such a thing. She is a cool girl, and she has a kind heart.” I said, recalling all the memories I have with her.
“That is your problem, Jake. You trust people too much. Maybe she is like that, but she clearly has a crush on you, so that made her do so…” Luke said.
“So, what should I do now?” I asked confusedly. Actually, I couldn’t get rid of the guilty feeling I had.
“You have done nothing wrong, Jake. You are just a victim, just like Sarah. So let’s try to talk some sense to her and stop her doing anything stupid.” Luke said.
Yes, he is right. That is what I should do… I have to be strong and act carefully…
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I could leave the hospital after a week. Doctors advised me to get some rest, but I could make my parents give me permission to go and see her.