Filed to story: A Girl Nobody Wanted Book by SansaR
I was crying like crazy… Why God! Why you made life so cruel for us? What wrong have we done? Why can’t I be with my baby in a moment like this? How happy will he be to see me?
I heard a loud bang on my door.
“Sarah!!!” Shane’s voice raised from the other side.
Wiping out tears and making my voice straight, I talked.
“Why?”
“Jake is out of the coma.” he was so excited.
Thank God, I got to know that earlier. Otherwise, I will lose it in front of Shane…
“Good. Thank you for letting me know.” I said casually.
“What the fu**, Sarah… Stop this bullshit… He is conscious now. Ask him… Let him explain. Doesn’t he deserve that much for everything he did for you?” he asked angrily.
No, my brother… He doesn’t deserve that little… He deserves everything for the love and care he gave me when there is no one for me.
“I told you, Shane… I don’t want any explanation. I have made my decision. I am happy he is recovered, other than that I have nothing to do with him. So mind your own business…” I said harshly. I don’t know how I could speak like that. I think this is the first time I talked to Shane that bitterly. Even in those days, when he treated me like a piece of s**t, I didn’t talk to him like this.
I heard him releasing a long sigh, and then he left.
I return to crying my eyes out…
There is one thing that remains constant in my life, that is tears in my eyes. I think I have an eternal bond with tears… Letting out all my frustration, I cried, lying down on the floor.
I stood up after some time as my phone starts to ring. When I saw the caller ID, my heart stopped.
Jake…
My fingers were itching to swipe the screen and answer his call… But that will make the situation worst. I don’t think I can handle talking with him right now. If I talk with him, I will meltdown, and everything I have planned for will go in vain.
When I didn’t answer, he called me again… He was calling me back to back… Luke must have told him everything. Why, Luke? Why did you tell him this soon? What if he gets sick again?
“Please answer the phone.” he sent me a text.
God! I am willing to get stabbed right now than going through this pain.
He was sending me many texts and calls… I couldn’t take it anymore. I switched off the phone…
Forgive me, my love… This is for us… For a happy and safe future for us…
I took a wash and changed cloth. I had to go to the dress designer for the final check of my dress. Andrew insisted me to have this dress, so I had to go for it.
When I come down, Luke was in the living room. He was in a call. As soon as I saw him, I turned around to go back to my room. I was not in a steady mood to talk with him.
But he screamed at me.
“Sarah, stop…”
“Please, give him a chance to explain… There is no harm in giving just one chance…” he said.
I got really frustrated… Why can’t he just leave me alone? Why he makes me want to kill my self?
“Shane, what part of ‘I don’t need any explanation from him’ you didn’t understand. He hid everything from me since the beginning. Since I am a poor girl, he thought he can do anything he wants and come back to me. He thought, even if he fu**ed another woman, that is okay because he is doing me a favor by loving me. ” I screamed… I don’t even know how those words came to my mind. I promise in front of all the gods, I have never felt like this. I just wanted to end Shane’s nonstop whining.
“Sarah…” Shane screamed.
The meantime…
“Princess…” when Jake’s sad voice raised from where Shane was standing, I was astonished.
He had his phone loudspeakers on, and it was my Jake on the other side.
“Is that the way you really think about me?” Jake’s worried voice raised again.
I don’t know enough words to explain what I felt right then. God!!! Please kill me!!! Please kill me!!! I can’t answer him!!!
Even hearing his voice made me lose all the barriers I had set around me.
“Is that the way you really think about me?”
Jake’s voice was loaded with concern and sorrow.
No! No! No! I have never felt about you like that, my love… I wanted to ran to Shane and grabbed his phone and screamed at Jake…
But how can I?
If I tell him what I am going to do, he will never give his permission. He won’t let me even go near Andrew Patterson, but without getting close to him, how can we dig up to everything he had done so far?
On the other hand, how can I tell him about what his dad told me? He thinks about his dad like he is a God. Knowing the truth will make him really sad and disappointed. I very well remember how I feel every time my parents betray me. I don’t want Jake to feel like that.
So, there are no other options but doing this on my own.
“Princess, is that the way you think about me?” Jake asked again since I was silent.
I inhaled a long breathe just as to inhale some courage to myself.
“Yes… I am fed up with getting cheated and betrayed. Anyway, she is a perfect match for you, Jake. Go… Have a perfect life with her. Andrew loves me, and he has never cheated me. So, I will have my life with him,” I said, hiding all the pain and desire to tell him the truth.
“I have never cheated or betrayed you, princess… Please, believe me… I have never had that kind of a relationship with anyone else…” Jake replied. His voice was wrapped in pain, don’t know if that the physical pain he has or the mental pain I have caused. My poor baby…
“I don’t want any explanation, Jake. I have taken my decision. I am leaving now, I have to check my engagement dress…” firmly saying that, I left the house…
“Princess, wait…”I heard Jake was screaming…
But I left, pretending like I don’t give a s**t when I was crying deep inside.
I couldn’t hold it anymore… I opened the gate and ran down the road like I got mad.