Filed to story: I Got Married Without You
It was like giving him a long-awaited chance to spend time together with her, how could Ryan not want that?
“If you’re here with me, then what about Andrew…”
Rosalyn glanced at her wristwatch subconsciously and breathed a sigh of relief. “I talked to him, and he agreed to let me accompany you.”
Depression patients didn’t need advice or warnings, they just needed company. Even if the one who companied them didn’t speak, simply being there silently could make them feel better.
Rosalyn believed that it was her that he could finally find hope. Only in this way could he be saved, and she could also atone for the guilt buried deep in her heart.
When Ryan heard that Rosalyn and Andrew had discussed this, his smile faded and turned bitter. “Rosalyn, I have Nora, Zoey, my father, and healthcare professionals at home. I really don’t need your company.”
He always had a sense of justice, and even though he wanted Rosalyn to be by his side, he refused in order to not ruin her marriage.
They said absence made the heart grow fonder. If they saw each other every day and spent time together, who could control the blossoming feelings?
He didn’t think Rosalyn would do anything, but he was afraid that he wouldn’t be able to control himself.
His lifelong obsession was her, so how could he not long for her when she was so close?
After being rejected, Rosalyn’s grip on the teacup tightened slightly. She knew Ryan was afraid of putting her in a difficult situation, which was why he refused her.
But severe depression was a terminal illness, it really could lead one to death. She didn’t want to wake up one day in Arcadia and hear the news of his death, she would feel incredibly guilty for retreating at this moment.
“Ryan, I know what you’re worried about, but I still want to help you.” She clenched her hand and rubbed her palm a few times before speaking. “Even though our feelings have faded, you have always been an important person in my heart. You have worked hard to support me since I was young, and I will always remember your kindness. I don’t want depression to torment you, I just want you to live a good life, because…”
At this point, Rosalyn took a deep breath and looked into Ryan’s eyes, tears streaming down her face. “Only when you are alive does the first half of my life have meaning.”
Ryan was the one who gave her the first half of her life, how could she easily forget? Her tears, like boiling water, hit Ryan’s heart and made his eyes turn red.
“Rosalyn, don’t worry, I will live well.” She was the belief that kept him going.
“I know that if something happened to me, you would be devastated. So, I will definitely live a good life.”
It was because of her that he was able to fight severe depression. Otherwise, he wouldn’t have been able to hold on for so long.
Ryan looked at Rosalyn with tears in his eyes, showing a clean and clear smile.
“You promised me your next life, I have to wait for you to leave this world before I can go. Otherwise, if I go first, what will happen to us missing each other in the next life?”
He said this as if telling a joke, revealing his decision from the depths of his heart.
“I have to wait for you to go to have our next life together.”
Rosalyn promised her lifetime to Andrew, but before that, she promised her next life to Ryan. He remembered, and she remembered too.
“You’re really silly…”
Ryan laughed again.
“If I wasn’t silly, how could I have forgotten about you before?”
This sentence made Rosalyn burst into tears again.
Seeing this, Ryan joked that she cried a lot.
“You liked to cry when you were little Ididn’t expect that even.
He complained about her while tenderly taking a tissue from the side to wipe away her tears.
As he was wiping, he saw the wedding ring on her raised hand and slowly let it go.
“Rosalyn, don’t worry about me. I will definitely live longer than anyone else.”
After Rosalyn wiped away her tears with her own hand, she looked at the man with a smiling expression and nodded gently.
“I have a friend who has also suffered from depression, and she overcame it. I’ll bring her tomorrow to tell you about the treatment methods.”
She knew Ryan was stubborn. Once he made a decision, he wouldn’t easily change it. If he didn’t agree, then she would have to find another way. Ryan refused her suggest to accompany him, so he couldn’t refuse her another suggest any longer and agreed.
“Okay, I’ll listen to you.”
Even if she arranged for him to marry someone else, he wouldn’t complain.
As if the conversation had opened up, the atmosphere between the two gradually relaxed.
“I’ll go change the tea leaves and see if you can taste the difference.”
When Ryan went to search for tea leaves in the tea box, Rosalyn quickly reached out to stop him.
“Teacher Collins, please spare me. I really know nothing about tea leaves.”
At most, she had learned how to brew tea from videos, but she was just pretending. Don’t torture her anymore.
The words “Teacher Collins” made Ryan vaguely remember the scene in middle school when he patiently helped her catch up in math…
At that time, Rosalyn had scored only 27 points in the math exam, ranking last in the class. Holding the test paper, she ran to the high school section to find him, crying loudly.
Unable to bear seeing her cry, Ryan would come home from work every day and grab her from under the covers, making her sit at the desk to give her extra lessons.
When she was stuck on a pile of math problems, she would hold a pen in one hand and sarcastically roll her eyes at him, mocking him for being more strict than the teacher.
Because of this, she called him Teacher Jones for a whole half year until her math test score went from 27 to 98, and then she switched back to calling him Ryan.
Thinking about the past, Ryan’s eyes were filled with a gentle smile. The heavy heart that was trapped in the swamp seemed to climb out a little bit…
It seemed that as long as she was there, he wouldn’t be too desperate. But if he selfishly keep her, the other man would undoubtedly sink into the swamp. Their situation was unsolvable, but the person who was having Rosalyn’s heart was no longer the Ryan of the past, but Andrew, who could hold up the sky for her. Ryan knew this in his heart, and it was precisely because of he knew it that he restrained himself while nostalgically missing the past.
Ryan slowly brought his distant thoughts back and looked at Rosalyn.
“Since you don’t want to have tea, let me take you to see the flowers garden!”
“Okay.”
Seeing that she was more interested in flowers than tea, Ryan. smiled and put down his tea cup. ahead of Zoey and held onto the wheelchair handle.
“Let me do it.”
She pushed Ryan towards the garden.
