Filed to story: I Got Married Without You
“No.”
A tinge of bitterness appeared on Anthony’s face.
“Then I won’t say it.”
He waved his hand casually.
Looking at that dwindling figure, Edith recalled the first time she saw him.
Back then, Anthony was sitting in the Nightshade box, lazily leaning on the couch, smoking alone.
This man hidden in the dim light was completely different from the bustling crowd around him, as if filled with loneliness.
Good girls always couldn’t resist this type of man, even though her friends warned her that he was a player, not to fall in love with him.
But she still wore a bright smile and said in her heart, “Sorry, but I fell for him at first sight. Your advice came too late!”
Later, Anthony got closer to Paul and she often saw him entering and leaving her brother’s house…
Every time young Edith saw him, she felt her heart was filled with honey. She always hid behind the door, secretly watching him.
After her courage grew, she would bring coffee, fruit, snacks, and other things, and push open her brother’s door to get closer to him.
Back then, Anthony, who was playing games, would occasionally glance at her.
His gaze was neither cold nor indifferent, as if he didn’t have much interest in this young girl.
Edith would then chase after Rebecca and ask how she could grow up faster.
Rebecca would pat her little head and say, “You’re only sixteen, just starting high school. Why are you so eager to grow up?”
Edith smiled and didn’t say anything, she searched for information online and learned about weight loss and makeup.
She had been paying special attention to managing her own image since she turned sixteen.
Later, when she found out that he had received an acceptance letter from a prestigious university abroad, she studied even harder.
She believed that she must follow in Anthony’s footsteps and let him see her shining and passionate self…
With a heart full of enthusiasm and love, she finally managed to get into the same university as him, and finally, with her own efforts, be with him.
But only after being with him did the understand what her friends had said a man who played around so much wouldn’t care too much about his getfriend But only being e unc her friends had said – a man who played around so much wouldn’t care too much about his girlfriend…
But at that time, she was deeply in love with Anthony, to the point of losing her dignity and grace. She pushed away all the women around him, often acting like an uncivilized woman, getting into fights with other girls, even using vulgar language like “bitch” and “go to hell.”
It’s unclear how Anthony fell in love with her. Maybe it was because he saw how crazy she was about him. When she was tangled up with other women, he suddenly grabbed her and held her tightly, with red eyes, promising her that he would never let these women upset her again and that he would love her deeply.
And he did. He loved her to the extreme, treating her well. He even washed her underwear and lingerie. During her period, he wouldn’t let her touch even a drop of cold water. Sometimes when she craved American food, he would search all over UK for it. If he couldn’t find it, he would fly back to the US and buy it, even learning how to make it for her.
In the winter, knowing she was cold, he would hold her in his arms, letting her rest on his shoulder all night long, maintaining the same position without moving, even if his arm went completely numb, he wouldn’t let go.
During the years they were together, Anthony spoiled her to the core. He would say “I love you” every day, hug her, kiss her. Even making love with her was done with caution, fearing that she might feel pain. If any man glanced at her, he would get jealous, afraid that she would be taken away by someone else. He protected and cherished her, not allowing anyone to bully her.
But it was this Anthony who loved her so much that, two years after graduation, suddenly broke up with her, saying he was tired of it and didn’t want to be with her anymore. Edith had been pampered and spoiled by him, and she couldn’t bear to be apart from him. She desperately refused to let go, even resorting to suicide to force him. When he saw her cutting her wrists in the bathtub, he held her and cried. Why, after not much time had passed, did he still have to break up with her so heartlessly? At that time, Edith couldn’t understand. She kept looking for him, pressuring him, asking if he still loved her.
Anthony said he didn’t love her anymore, but Edith didn’t believe it. She cut her wrists again, but this time he didn’t cry, he didn’t save her, he just left with his things.
He moved out of the house they had lived together in and went to a remote place. Edith searched for a long time to find him, only to see him with another woman…
Yes, even so, Edith never gave up. Like a fool, she sat in the living room, waiting for them to finish, and then helped clean the room.
At that time, as she picked up the messy clothes on the bed, she comforted herself, thinking that everything would be fine once the room was cleaned.
Her Anthony, when he got tired of other women, would remember her goodness and come back to her…
And she kept going through this again and again…
The last time, Anthony shouted at her, telling her not to be so lowly anymore.
She was holding another woman’s clothes, slowly squatting down by the bed.
She remembered that she didn’t cry at that moment, she just asked him, “Do you really not love me anymore?”
When she got the answer, she finally woke up, realizing that once someone’s heart changes, they can’t truly come back…
After that, she locked herself up, trying to convince herself to let go while hoping he would come and see her.
Eventually, in such days, she gradually developed depression.
How did she manage to get through it?
Through countless fantasies, self-redemption, and the companionship of her parents…
That road was so long and painful, every time Edith thought back, her heart would ache.
She warned herself not to try that pain again.
Luckily, as time went by, slowly, the pain faded away…
She knew then that she had completely moved on.
Looking at the lonely figure in the distance, she softly said,
“Anthony, make it clear. This way, you can let go, and I can find peace.”
He had been chasing after her, just wanting to explain what happened back then. After all, it’s hard to accept the separation when it was against their will.
By venting out this dissatisfaction, he would find peace, just like she did. Even someone who had loved so deeply was able to let go, right?
Anthony’s steps slowed down, but he didn’t turn around. Through tear-filled eyes, his gaze fixated on the silhouettes projected on the ground by the streetlights.
“Do you remember when you asked me before why someone as young as me would wander among clubs?”
“Yeah, I remember.”
As a high school student, it was abnormal to spend day and night in various entertainment places.
She was curious and asked him softly many times while holding his arm, but he never told her the answer.
