Filed to story: The Girl He Craves Book by Demiah
It has been two months since the hearing and my heart still feels broken. The pain of being the reason two boys’ lives were ruined completely took a toll on me I was a miserable person twenty four seven Mila hops down the countertop and turns around to search through the draw ‘Is there one inside here?” She rummages through the tiny pill trotules and finds a ornallcup
Well, this one should do ” She murmurs and walks over to me. She places the cup in my awaiting hands and pries the test from my hands.
“Okay, here you go. She whispered and looked at me, her eyes darting from both of mine. “It will be okay Soph There’s nothing wrong with just trying to be sure it will be fine
She was the one who suggested that I take a test
I hauled in a breath and let it out through my mouth shakily Okay
I backed away until my legs touched the toilet, lifted the lid, and then pulled my panties down my legs. Lifting up my dress, I fit myself on the toilet sit and then push the cup between my legs
I looked at Mila panicking when I dont feel my pee going down “Relax Soph. It will be okay No matter what happens next, it will be okay She reassures with a nod to her head
I try to relax but I just couldnt ‘Can you just turn on the pipe please?” I asked, hoping that hearing the water pouring into the drain would help my pee finally stop playing peek-a-boo Mila smiled, nodded, and opened the faucet It takes a good while until I felt my pee entering the cup. I would have done a happy dance if i wasn’t so worried about the results
When I was done, I gave Mila the cup She cringes ‘Oh, I love you babe, but touching your piss is a no-no. Despite her words, she grasp the cup and placed it on the surface of the countertop I rolled my eyes and fixed my clothes and panties back into place I flushed the toilet and closed the lid, I sat back down on the lid and sighed heavily while shaking my legs nervously Mila washed her hands under the running pipe while looking at me Aren’t you going to wash your hands, Soph?”
Oh.
I sheepishly smiled and walked over to the opened pipe. “Are you sure Ingrid isn’t suspicious of what’s going on?” I asked nervously as washed my hand under the cool running water
“I can’t really know for sure Soph. But whatever happens, she’ll fully support you no matter what and you know that Mila sighs.
I closed the pipe and gripped the countertop. ‘I turned eighteen today. I’m an adult now They no longer have to take care of me according to the state.
“You know the Simpsons would never do something like that to you Soph. I can’t believe you’d even think like that.” Mila scowled.
I looked down at the sink and sighed. “You’re right. I just don’t see this working out if I’m pregnant MII, it’s already so difficult to make ends meet.”
“Hey! You don’t know if you’re pregnant yet Soph. How about waiting for the results before bursting your head about it?” Mila suggested.
i nodded. She was right. I should really stop worrying so quickly especially when I didn’t have the results yet. I could be worrying over nothing really
But I can’t help but think about how my life would be if I were actually pregnant. How would I be able to raise a kid on my own? Aiden was not here to help me.
I just couldn’t see this working out.
I had college to think about
What the hell would I do if
The two minutes are up now,” Mila whispered, removing the timer off her phone.
All three tests were beside us, but I had refused to eyen glance at them once. But now that the two minutes were up, I didn’t want to look at them at all. “Can you look for me?” I whispered, my voice shaky.
Mila nods and squeezes my hand reassuringly. Of course Soph:
It’s quiet for a few seconds, but even with the lack of noise, I can somehow feel the tension zipping through the air.
“What do they read Mila?” I asked nervously, my skin coating with a thin layer of sweat until the material of my dress begins to itch me.
*All three are… She trails off with a nervous shocked edge. Breathing in sharply she whispers lowly. “You’re pregnant Sophie.
My entire world feels like it’s crashing down around me. I shook my head as tears filled my eyes. She was wrong. She must be.
I whip my eyes to the three tests I had been avoiding looking at. I can’t seem to breathe properly when my eyes zeroed in on those two red lines. Oh no.
I shook my head. “This isn’t possible,” I started in denial.
“I can’t be.” I whimpered praying that this was all just a nightmare and that I just needed to wake up.
“I can’t be pregnant Mila.” I cried, digging my fingers into my hair and gripping the strands tightly.
Sophie’s pov
Mila’s words were reassuring. They really were. But they couldn’t break the circle of doubt, fear, and shock I was currently feeling at the moment.
I was pregnant. At least that’s what all three tests read.
“I just turned eighteen today, I have no job, Mila. How am I going to do this on my own? Aiden
I stopped, hiccuping on a sob. Life was unfair to me.
Did the heavens hate me that much to not give me a break from all those hurdles they flew my way?
Aiden was behind bars, serving time. And I was a hundred percent sure he hated me with a passion. I dream every day about his cold eyes that shone with betrayal when he stared at me that day before they took him away.
In a way, he blamed me for what happened. He hated me.
My heart squeezed. I had placed myself in a tight spot and I saw no way to get out of it.
“You’re not going to be doing this on your own Soph. You have the Simpsons and me. We’ll be here every step of the way she reassured me while hugging my body sideways as she wiped my tears. “There are other options you know….” She trailed off as if unsure if her words would create more harm than good.
I shook my head quickly. “I could never do abortion.”
She shook her head. “I was more leaning on adoption? There are families who crave to have what you carry in your womb.
I wince at her words. She was definitely making this more real for me.
But…..she was right
There are families who yearn for a child. I had one currently in my womb. I could make some family happy. I could give them something they craved for
But as my eyes drop to my stomach, my heart squeezes. What if I can’t let him or her go when I first set my eyes on them? What would I do then?
*I don’t know Mila. ‘I trailed off unsurely.
‘it was just an option Soph. You don’t have to think about it so early on.’ She reassures, squeezing me to her.
“And if you do happen to keep the baby, I will be here to help you every step of the way. She beamed.
My eyes meet hers in the reflection of the mirror. “But what about New York Mila? Our plans? My shoulders sagged.
Mia and I had already planned to go to New York when we graduate from high school. It was supposed to be an exciting new chapter for us. Me to college and her to look for work Mila had no intentions of going back to school.
Apparently, school and learning just weren’t for her anymore
We only had a few more months until graduation. And now I had a huge damper on the plans.
She winces and lets me go while mumbling. “Well, I hadn’t quite thought about that.”
She scratches her chin and paced the entire length of the bathroom before stopping before me.
“My cousin Ria was willing to let us share her apartment with her. We only need to pay our share of the rent. Her mother, my aunt, did suggest I come and work for her in their little diner. I’m sure that they’ll accept both you and me.” She rushed out as if finding a solution to the hardest math question.
I raised my eyebrows in doubt. “They’ll accept a pregnant eighteen year old?”
She nods. “I’m sure they will. My aunt isn’t as strict as my mom. In fact, I once caught her smoking marijuana at one of our many family gatherings. She owes me one for not telling her husband she relapsed.” I sighed. This feels too good to be true. How will I make this work when I was supposed to go to college and make a better life for myself?