Filed to story: A Girl Nobody Wanted Book by SansaR
“what the hell are you doing?” he snarled.
Did he look angry? Well, I am not sure. I couldn’t decipher the feeling on his face.
“I… I am… go….water…filter…” avoiding his gaze, I ran to the water filter.
Is he looking at me? Will he follow me here?
I had a thousand and one questions to get answers. But I was not dared to even look back.
It is totally wrong to look at someone else’s phone when they are working with it. But what if that someone has so many photos of you on his phone?
I couldn’t name even a single reason for him to have my photos on his phone. It is completely fine if he has one photo, but we are talking about a gallery full of photos!!! and not just that he was fu**ing zoom it and… touching it… Oh God!!! what is wrong with him?
I never expected to observe this kind of a thing from him. He is always this cold, proud person who doesn’t give a s**t about any girl.
Then what is he doing with my photos? Is he having some kind of a feeling towards me? No! No way!!!
That would be the last thing to happen in the world. Someone like him, someone who is everyone’s pharming, to have any feelings for a normal girl like me. Wake up from your dream, girl… those things happen in movies only. But Luke loves me right? He is also, someone I can never believe to love a girl like me.
Yeah!! you idiot… he loves you… so get your s**t together and forget what you saw… Get over Jake girl! I am fed up with your immature behavior… Focus on the person who loves you…
This must be a mistake. Yeah… maybe I didn’t see it correctly… maybe that is someone else who was in those photos…
“Sarah!!!!!” I was pulled back to reality as someone shouted at me.
It was from Luke!!
Then only I realize, that I have open the water filter, and my cup is already filled and water was spilling out.
SHIT!!!! How dumb are you actually…
“Are you okay?” he asked concernedly.
“yeah… yeah… I was just…” I didn’t know what to tell.
“thinking…” he completed my sentence and grinned.
“yeah, thinking…” I smiled.
“must be something special… but you look bit panicked…” he said concernedly again.
“ah, it’s nothing…” I said smiling at him and trying to persuade him.
“Then okay. I got a bit late. Didn’t you take a wash?”
“no… I thought it is better to get a wash before going to sleep”
“I am already sleepy. Let’s finish this soon and go to sleep”
Without saying anything I smiled at him and nodded my head in agreement.
When we come to the table all the people were already there.
Jake was explaining something. I didn’t even dare to look at him. But what is the fault I have done, to feel this much embarrassed? I think he must be feeling guilty way more than me, but instead, he looks so calm and cold. Jake kept on explaining things and both Luke and Dean supported him. I couldn’t really concentrate on the discussion as my mind was still wandering around those photos. What would be the reason, for him to have all my photos on his phone? “Sarah!” with Dean’s shouting I got panicked and looked at them.
I saw Jake was staring at me, with so much anger in his eyes. His whole face has turned red.
Luke was looking at me concernedly. Both bob and Glenn was laughing at me.
God!! What the hell has happened?
“Sarah are you sure you okay?” Luke asked. He sounded so bothered.
“how many times we called you? what are you thinking that much?” Glenn asked angrily.
“This is not a place to think about personal matters. If someone can’t understand that 5 other people are just wasting their precious time here when that person is so engaged in thinking and pay no attention to the discussion, I don’t see a point to have this damn discussion anymore. I go to sleep. ” Jake basically yelled at us, but his gaze was focussed on me. He looked furious and disappointed. Then the next moment, he stood up and stormed off the lecture hall without even looking back
It took me a few seconds to process what has just happened.
OH! Sarah!! You have messed up everything.
My eyes filled with tears. I am so stupid, I don’t deserve to be happy. I destroy everything. I wanted to go after Jake and ask for forgiveness. But more than that, I wanted to run away from everyone and get hide in my cold small room in my home, that is the place I deserve after all.
“Sarah, if you feeling unwell, please tell me.” Luke sounded really sad, there was not even a hint of anger or disappointment.
My Luke!!! My sweet… sweet… Luke!!!
You don’t deserve to be loved by such a gentle person Sarah!!! You have your feelings all over the place. Why the hell you can’t hold to one decision?
“I am fine Luke…I am really sorry… please forgive me. I was in a small problem. But I know I should not make you all waste your time, because of that.”
“Hey!! don’t think that much. It is a small thing, that can happen to anyone at any time.” Luke tried to convince me.
How much you love me, my sweet Luke!!! I really don’t deserve your love.
“Yeah.. don’t worry Sarah. It is not a big thing. I actually don’t know, why Jake got that mad” Dean said.
I also really don’t get that Dean. when I was complaining about guys getting late, he said we have to expect such things when we do teamwork. But now he got this angry because I didn’t pay attention?
“What you mean. Jake was correct. We all are wasting our time here, looking at all these bullshits.” Bob yelled at me.
“Bob!!!” Luke yelled at him and gave him a warning look.
“Why you bark at me? you didn’t try to stop Jake. He can tell whatever he wants. But I can’t even open my mouth…” Bob yelled again.
“Please stop… please… you don’t have to fight. This is all my fault. Please forgive me. We were discussing the architecture right? I promise you, I will come up with the architecture diagram by tomorrow morning. So your time will not be wasted.” I said. I couldn’t let them bark at each other just because of me. Especially I didn’t want to put Luke in trouble.
“That is not an easy thing. You may have to wake up all night Sarah.” Dean stated.
“that is totally fine. I will take care of that. You all may go to sleep now.” I said trying to smile.