Filed to story: A Girl Nobody Wanted Book by SansaR
Oh God!!! This is really fu**ed up… I can’t go through this…
“Sarah… sing a song girl… don’t be shy… Bob was telling me, how good you were at singing… we didn’t even know you are such a good singer…” Ms. Smith said smiling at me.
Oh! Well played! Bob!!!
You have trapped me in a way that I can never escape. I couldn’t even believe he even approached, Ms. Smith, because he is normally very famous on avoiding talk with lecturers as much as possible. No doubts… he is coming for revenge…
“No Ms. Smith… I don’t really… sing… and… I don’t feel… well also…” I stammered.
“Common Sarah! Don’t be afraid… it just your friends… nothing to be worried. Didn’t you hear they were singing all the way… no one is judging you…” Ms. Smith said again.
Oh Ma’am you know nothing… these people are not my friends in any mean… they are fu**ing hate me, and all they want is to make me humiliated…
My eyes traveled to Luke, without me even knowing. He was sitting in a seat in the back, Mark was sitting beside him. He was staring at me, and the familiar painful look was filled in his face. “Sarah sing for us…” someone screamed, and it was followed by many others.
The whole bus was filled with cheers in no time “Sarah!!! Sarah!!! Sarah!!!”
“I think this newfound bravery suits you” his word were echoing in my mind, despite all the noise. I have to keep him proud…I can’t let him down.
“Fine!!!!” I screamed. I think I have never screamed like that. My head felt spinning.
But, it was good…everyone stopped their noises.
“I will play…” I said, looking at Luke. He looked troubled… He was not there in that summer camp, but he may have heard about what happened… So I can’t blame him for worrying about me… “terrific!!!” Bob, grabbed me from my hand and took me to the back. He made me sat beside JAKE!!!
He was sitting in the front seat of Luke’s.
I felt my heart started to pump furiously!!! What the hell!!! Now I have two things to concern!!!
Oh, I hate sitting near him… it makes me nervous to death…
Bob gave me the guitar…
I took it and closed my eyes… The fragrance of Jake’s cologne was seducing my nostrils. I even felt the warmth of his body…
I heard his deep sighs…
Forget everything else, Sarah… Forget Luke!!! Forget Jake!!! Focus!!! You got this!!!
Last time, you messed everything up because you got nervous… This time you have to stay calm.
They want for you to get humiliated… Don’t let them get it!!!
I tightly closed my eyes… my mind went blank… I see nothing but darkness…
I took a deep breath…
I traveled my fingers gently on guitar strings…
and I started singing… my favorite song… the song I remember every word…The song I always played and sing whenever I want to drown in my thoughts of HIM…
Heartbeats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave?
How can I love when I’m afraid to fall?
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer…000
I was singing closing my eyes and my fingers running vigorously over the guitar… There were just the sound of the bus and my voice blended with the guitar tune, nothing more. Has everyone forgotten to breathe? Am I breathing?
I have died every day waiting for you
Darling, don’t be afraid
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more
My eyes were filled with tears… I don’t know the reason but all the memories of my obsession with Jake were coming to my mind, and they carried me away to a whole new world… where it was him and me… looking into the eyes of each other… I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more…
I finished singing and slowly opened my eyes… those tears held in my closed eyes started running along my cheeks…
Everyone was just staring like they were just frozen with a spell…
What do you think? What have I done?
Oh! Wait!!! Did I tell you, after that horrible incident, I went to music practices at school… I learned to play guitar and I trained my voice as well. I did it just to make me happy, but I didn’t make any use of it, well until now… So don’t afraid… I nailed it… Your girl nailed it, guys!!!!
I felt someone keep a hand on my shoulder, I turned around to see Jake was staring at my tear-filled eyes… his eyes looked… well I don’t know… so many emotions… that I can’t distinguish from each other…
his hand felt so warm on my shoulder, even though the thick material of my baggy sweater.
His face lit up… God!!! it is that smile!!! It is that fu**ing smile!!! Which I saw in my dream…
The only difference is this time… it was not a dream… it was real… and it’s really happening… OH MY GOD!!!
I just stared at his startling blue eyes, which were joyfully smiling at me. His whole face glowed with that rare smile… the exact same smile I saw in my dreams…
Time seemed to be frozen. I felt nothing but, his touch and his smile.